Monday, January 16, 2012 @8:38 AM
I cry not because i'm weak...
sometimes...
it's because i've been strong for too long...
And certain issues (like weight...looks...) trigger a wave of negative emotions...
just cuz i was too afraid to face up to them and acknowledge that I need help.
I'm not one to put myself down.
In fact, I have always been a sensible, independent and strong-willed girl...
I never want people to see me weak, because i myself don't like to see people brood over issues like weight and seek pity from others...
but i know it's tough to work on my weight when i make myself disillusioned to the fact that...
i do need help... and i want to do so healthily...
Another reason for trimming down is because i want to dance well.... i feel sluggish if there's some extra weight around.
I'm so thankful for an understanding boyfriend and someone who loves me for me, no matter how i look. I know he sincerely cares for me, and he wants me to be healthy, not so i can look good (which he reassures that i am the prettiest girl he has ever laid eyes on), but because he wants me to lead a healthy life so i can live long! =)
And thanks to Josh, I'm able to finally face up to these issues and tackle them head on. I'm not perfect, and yes it'll be a slow and painful process, but it's worth every effort to make myself fit and healthy, so i can feel good, and look good! =D
Thank you Josh, for being my pillar of support! =D I can honestly say, and declare to the world, that i love you with all my heart!! ^^
