That took me a very long time to finally comprehend, but i finally do now. I can't believe i've learnt that lesson from a fictional story lol! But isn't that the beauty of stories? It teaches us lessons, lessons that we may have heard before, but we never truly understood. Weave in a memorable storyline and the re-emphasis of the moral, and finally, i understand.

I'm letting go of A. I've come to realise that if i continue to love him, nothing is gonna come out of it but more hurt, since he doesn't have feelings for me anyway. What's the use of forcing myself onto him, when he isn't willing to accept my love? No one deserves to be forced upon, because if one tries to love without truly loving, it would just be an empty feeling, a chore, a baggage that one has to carry...

That's why i decided to fully let go. It isn't worth emotionally and mentally hurting myself with depressing thoughts and trying to force my love on someone else. I let go so that i can let that person find love in his own way, at his own time. As for me, i'm sure that i would meet someoen who would make me feel so special, and one whom i admire, one whom i can love just as much, and show him how special he is to. I would find someone who would protect me and won't give me up, just because he believes in the bond between me and him. There may be people trying to seperate us or hurt our r/s, but as long as he believes in me and i believe in him, there's no way we'll be seperated.

So that's it. I'm not gonna do anything. I'll wait. I won't rush into relationships, i'll definitely find someone who sees my worth and more, and whom i also see his worth and more. i'll take my time to look, and i'm sure he'll be there. =)

This is the meaning of letting go. To let myself live, to let the other party live too. It's all gonna be alright.

haha, and for now, i'm more inspired by family relationships or friendships, just cuz of the stability i see in them, and the unbreakable trust that i've witnessed. They're the ones backing me up baby! =)

So i'm not gonna cry over him anymore. I'm not gonna wait, i'm not gonna sigh. I'm just gonna smile, cuz now i'm free... i've let go. I can breathe easy again.. =)

Jodie