Saturday, May 31, 2008 @9:39 AM
Hey guys I'm back again =) Seems like i came back earlier than i thought. I just watched some eps of gossip girl and it got me thinking. Oh by the way, you should know how scandalous gossip girl is. With the new eps, it's even juicier! Anyway! Looking at our society, it's pretty much the same. I guess the show's trying to highlight all the teenage stuff that's happening to all of us. Back-stabbing, hiding dark secrets that some people know and want to use against you etc. It's a scary society out there, but it's real alright. i think all of us has fallen prey to this. People out there know lots about us, and they can use it to their own advantage....or disadvantage. If they're not happy with you, they ruin you. Tell it to all their frenz, see what happens to u. You'll just die. You think being ostrasized isn't bad enough? Think again. For me, I dunno why certain things are happening now. For instance, since the start of this yr, ppl who were ok with me last yr, hate me now or can't be bothered with me. What did i do wrong people! Sure they think I'm a goody-goody who follow all the rules and suck up to higher authority. Think again. I'm seriously sick of how people judge me. Sure I try not to get in trouble, but i bend some rules. And just because I do, some people don't like it. Reality check, you're doing it as well. I don't get it! Why are people so judgemental! I am a very sensitive person. If you hate me or have something against me, I know it! It's sickening. Everyday I go to sch i just noe there are people out there who's just waiting for the right opportunity to strike. There are people who i used to be ok talking to, now they just diss me off. What's going on? I don't freaking noe! Look i noe, from my previous posts, that i come across to you guys as someone who's pretty cheerful. I am. However there are just certain things that really bug me, including this. I hate it even more that people think I AM judgemental. The moment someone looks at me and condescends me, isn't that judging me already? But the thing that bugs me the most, is why i can't be someone who i really am in front of everyone else. I can only truly be myself when I'm with my closest frenz, or complete strangers. All who have labelled me and thought that i was some sort of nerd and "perfect prefect", I tend to act it. I HATE IT! I don't live for them! argh! Do I look like the perfect prefect to you? DO I?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Sheesh! I'm not angry at certain individuals. I'm just annoyed at all these behaviours and attitudes I've been receiving. I know how people feel. I know it. Phew, alright i think i should stop. Don't you think these things happen to you as well? Humans are two-faced.....even me. So no one's perfect. I just see certain things that cause me to be upset. I know more than you think. But i wont blackmail. that's insane. You wanna see what blackmailing is, go watch gossipgirl. Don't ask me. lolP.S. To those who take offence in this, I'm sorry but this is how i feel right now. Not happy? Live with it.
JoJo
