Friday, March 09, 2007 @6:47 AM
Wow! It has been a while ever since i blogged! lol
Sigh! The last few weeks are like, havoc! I've been crying and crying almost every night the other time... and now, I made someone so special to me cry every night! What's wrong with me! What's wrong with this... this... ARGH! Sometimes i really wonder why I'm so stupid! Although he has scolded me and all the other times, why am I being so cold to him now even though he tried to change... I mean i didn't really see the change but I know that he was trying his best. Oh well, cooling off for 2 weeks, hopefully I'll know what I want next time, I'll just leave it all to God =)
March holidays just started! YAY! I hope i can find the time to go out with my friends! Yay! Oh... still need to study! grrrrrr
We're given so much homework! How are we supposed to finish everything in one week?! Like hello!! We need a break! AHHHH! Help Help! I cant memorize Tantum Ergo!!!! AHHHHHHHH gonna die! GONNA DIE!
lol ok, this post is like, all about my rantings. It's pretty much redundant unless u know what I'm talking about. Haha
Life is just so confusing at times. Sometimes, u don't really know why things are going this way, and you just wanna give up everything and surrender! That's how i felt...I thought that if something happened to me, it'll stop me from experiencing all these confusion...but that's as good as giving up. It's so hard being a teenager now... it's so hard being just 15 with 1 guy trying to "control" your life....really hard.... Thing is, he is a nice guy but... just too obsessive... i guess no one will truly know how i feel right now unless they've gone through the same thing as me. Guilt, misery, torn between 2 sides, stranded...lost
oh well, guess i'll end off here. Getting pretty late and i gotta sleep, Choir tomorrow! Gotta wake up early and memorize scores! woohoo! I'll blog more next time! See ya all!
<33 JoJo
