Wednesday, March 08, 2006 @5:28 AM
Hey everyone! I'm glad you all could stop by to view my new entry.
I'm sure all of you are pretty bored with reading about people's results all the time, especially during this period when we rave about how we did not meet up to our expectations for certain subjects. Therefore I hope that you will not fall asleep upon reading this entry. I'll try to make it short and snappy.
I'm pretty depressed today, ever since I got to know my CA1 results. Sigh, I never thought my grades would drop so drastically from last year till now. Sure, advancing one year in education can be a challange and it is common that this would happen, but for me, I believe that I should have gotten way better results than the results I produced if only I have been more focused. I was too distracted, too complacent and thus did not put in my best. Why can't I just turn back time and take the tests for those subjects that I didn't score up to my standards.
Sigh, everyone has beaten me. I feel like such a loser. I used to be really good in my studies, but just recently, my grades just dropped. Even my english grades dropped dramatically and my good friend( my partner) even mentioned that I was losing confidence in my english. I was losing confidence in
MYSELF. I have dissapointed myself, my family and my teachers... Sure, I still managed to clinge 4 As(mind you that it's only 2 A1s and 2 A2s) out of the 9 subjects, but I still didn't meet my expectations... ...
I know I shouldn't dwell on the past anymore, that I should really focus on doing well for CA 2, 3 and the final year exams. I'm going to push myself till I see more As on my report card. Until then, I'll still continue to push myself to ensure that I secure my good marks.
People keep telling me that I shouldn't push myself too hard, but I really can't help it. Without any determination or perseverence, an athlete would fail to complete the race. It is the same for my studies. I really have to do well.... ... I really have to... ... sobs!
Look at the time, I better be going. Sorry if I dampened your mood today. I didn't type this entry to upset people. Please accept my sincere apologies.
With regards,
Jojo
