gate to my life

2012-01-29T21:13:00.001-08:00

Why do people blog?

Many have the conception that people blog because of self expression.... while many of us started our blogs having that mindset, I seem to deviate from this. I blog because it's a process of self reflection, and a self-realization of the things happening to me now. I don't blog often cuz i don't see the need to tell of my daily activities, because they aren't always exciting anyway...

What i blog about is really a self reflection of the impactful things that happen in my life, things that mean a lot to me. My hope is that by typing it out, I can realise some things along the way, and people in similar positions as me, would find they can associate themselves with me as i find epiphany...

So here's what's been for my mind for a long time, and have recently sorted out.

Fear is a dangerous thing. I feared that i would lose my boyfriend to someone else because i felt i wasn't as perfect as he says i am. I was fearful because he has shared with me how he has been close to other girls before, and i want him to only share these intimate moments with me, even though these girls are already in the past. He's a sociable and friendly guy, and has some close female friends... i fear that these female friends will take him away. Basically, i was an insecure wreck...

Until he made me realise that i have nothing to fear but the fear itself. Did he ever get close to any girl besides me when he was together with me already? No. Did he find his close female friends just for the heck of it? No. Did he ever do anything to betray my trust? No.

But i behave like i don't trust him, when time and time again, i said i did. I justified by saying i don't trust other girls... but why should i care about what the other girls are doing if i know my man is faithful and loyal to me, and he knows what to do in order to avoid hurting me...?

I was so foolishly insecure over nothing that I have been blowing things out of proportion and crying, losing my temper, breaking down... why?

Granted, i had past experiences of guys leaving me and breaking my heart... but they were gone now. I have a perfect boyfriend. He loves me. We are so connected, so similar, and our differences compliment each other. However now, i'm just acting like he's gonna leave me anytime.... when the truth is, he's here to stay... forever.

Then he told me why he fell in love with me in the first place..... cuz i had hope. I was hopeful for true love, and i believed that love still exist... despite all the hurt i've been true. He was scared too cuz he has been through a lot, but seeing my hope, and leap of faith, I made him believe in love again...

So where did that beautiful girl go to?

She's still right here, typing away furiously on the keyboard because she knows she made a mistake, and wants to go back to how she was.

I am always hopeful... but through pointless fear and insecurities, it engulfed that hopeful little girl and encouraged monsters to grow... to the point that my boyfriend was so afraid of me...

but no more... no more would i live in fear, no more would my boyfriend be taken aback or scared of my reckless actions....

No girl or guy will interfere in our relationship as long as we remain faithful to each other and together, hope for a future to spend together. Love is based on hope. I can't know what the future has for me... i dunno what tomorrow will bring... but hope makes it a little bit possible to move one step and continue to live on with my life.

2012-01-16T08:38:00.000-08:00

I cry not because i'm weak...

sometimes...

it's because i've been strong for too long...

And certain issues (like weight...looks...) trigger a wave of negative emotions...

just cuz i was too afraid to face up to them and acknowledge that I need help.

I'm not one to put myself down.

In fact, I have always been a sensible, independent and strong-willed girl...

I never want people to see me weak, because i myself don't like to see people brood over issues like weight and seek pity from others...

but i know it's tough to work on my weight when i make myself disillusioned to the fact that...

i do need help... and i want to do so healthily...

Another reason for trimming down is because i want to dance well.... i feel sluggish if there's some extra weight around.

I'm so thankful for an understanding boyfriend and someone who loves me for me, no matter how i look. I know he sincerely cares for me, and he wants me to be healthy, not so i can look good (which he reassures that i am the prettiest girl he has ever laid eyes on), but because he wants me to lead a healthy life so i can live long! =)

And thanks to Josh, I'm able to finally face up to these issues and tackle them head on. I'm not perfect, and yes it'll be a slow and painful process, but it's worth every effort to make myself fit and healthy, so i can feel good, and look good! =D

Thank you Josh, for being my pillar of support! =D I can honestly say, and declare to the world, that i love you with all my heart!! ^^

Story of my life

2011-05-20T07:47:00.000-07:00

So this week is officially the worst week ever.

In just one week, i found out that my crush from S_U has a girlfriend when he was obviously flirting with me during the interview.... and secondly, i just failed my driving test today.

wow my.life.rocks.

like wth, strike kerbs and abrupt change lanes can get me 40 demerit points? r u sure? the tester only circled like 10 points and 4 points, which added together is 14 rite? SO WHERE DID THE OTHER 26 POINTS COME FROM!

and what seriously, u got a girlfriend and u give the impression o another girl (aka me and maybe lots more) that u are interested in them? at least next time if u wanna show that u just wanna make frenz, dont lean against the wall and smile at me!!!!! And wait a min, u got a girlfriend, why u interested in other girls!!!!

=__________=

Seriously, life is really screwing with me.

I seriously need to just calm down and hope and pray that later on, nothing worse could happen. This already is pretty bad already rite, RITE!! what could go worse!

Totally spammed comfort foods today. Ice cream, chocolate and now large cup of bubble tea.

sighh

One thing good happened though.... i'm glad i went for church dance practice. everyone was really nice about it when they heard i failed my driving. My friend even told me smth that cheered me up. haha!

SO NEXT TIME (2ND JULY) I WILL PASS MY BLOODY DRIVING TEST!

i gotta calm down

Stop putting so much pressure on myself cuz i CAN do this. I just need to trust myself more.

And seriously, stop getting so uptight during lessons too. haiz.

and about that guy.... AH FORGET IT!

EVEN IF U'RE GONNA BE IN THE SAME SCHOOL AS ME.... IMMA GONNA DEATH GLARE U, THEN SMILE AT U, AND MAKE U UBER CONFUSED!!!!! cuz u made be sad...

Can i ever find the right guy... i just suddenly feel so alone and i really wanna get over this. yes, i have awesome frenz..... but one thing i dont have, is patience..... i know, i gotta wait till i enter uni then new things would happen rite? I'll meet better guys who are more matured (i hope) and good looking and SINGLE... and a great sense of humour with a warm and accepting personality.

So yeah..... just gotta take things 1 step at a time...

2011-05-16T08:16:00.000-07:00

helloooo!

Driving test this friday! super excite really!!!!! but i must really calm down and just stay focus. I WILL PASS MY DRIVING WOOHOO!!!!

ok, anw...

After driving lesson today, i went out with JX and Tim. Shopped again (sigh spending moneh is painful haha!) at forever 21 (love their clothes seriously! new stock frigging awesome! fashion getting better!) and Bershka.

We met up at vivo, then jx drove all of us to Ion.

It was so epic. Tim is a fail gps srsly! he gave wrong directions, then ask jx turn right, then b4 she wanna turn say nono, turn left! like HALLOO!! very difficult to suddenly change lane!

And we got off the cte tunnel too early! we ended up at bugis when we were supposed to exit at DHOBY to go to orchard!

HAHA so fail right? omg!!

but it was good though, spending time with my frenz! =) i love all my different group of frenz. they all have one thing in common.... they never fail to entertain me. =)

LOTS OF LOVE TONITE YO!

oh then after shopping at ion (that's when we went to bershka), Tim had to leave. JX and i went to paradise dynasty for dinner!

We each had a set of 8 xiao long bao of different flavours!!! Really, u should just try one whole set by itself and eat it at the same time, same flavour at the same time! It's pretty fun, us commenting on the different tastes and looking at our expressions at those that we can't really appreciate. Both of us agreed that the garlic xiao long bao was the best! realy very nice!!! Next time i'll definitely order just the garlic one!!!!! oh and really, 1 time trying the 8 different flavoured xiao long bao was enough! If you're curious, these were the eight flavours : garlic, ginseng, cheese, crab roe, black truffle, foi gras, sze chun, and of course, original (pork flavoured). The sze chun flavour was super uber UBER SPICYYYY and sour at e same time! jx couldnt eat it cuz she dont take spicy, so she pushed it to me... which i couldnt stomach it cuz really, 1 was enough to make me feel super hot alr and it really burns!!!! i downed 1 glass of water just after one sze chun xiao long bao ok!!

We also ate pan fried pork buns and dumplings, finishing off with this very refreshing dessert, aloe vera with red dates and some flower, in honey lemon juice. This dessert really helped cool off the heat from the spicy xiao long bao, and it made me feel less bloated! ^^ so ordering that the next time i'm going!!

Went hom after that.... on the mrt heading towards dhoby, i just had to sit at the bench where there were couples...... all on the same bench as me! i be lonelygirl92 seriously!!!!!! one bench has 7 seats, and just nice, 3 COUPLES were occupying the bench, and i was so lucky that i got to be in between all of them! omg awkward much! made me feel lonely.... i needa get a boyfriend soon srsly...... waiting for uni life to start then when the time is right and the right guy comes along, I won't be that lonely girl on the bench haha!

It felt weird..... i was in so many (ok not a lot.... i think... ) r/s b4.... and now i'm not. at first i was like, "oh ya, independence ftw! i'm gonna be a free woman!! Enjoy life to the fullest man woohoo!"

Then i saw my frenz with their partners... and other people.... and i was still like,

"it's ok! this kinda romantic stuff won't bother me at all! i've had enough, i just wanna rest, and enjoy singlehood! i don't have to be bounded, and i can just be frenz with whoever i want, and do things for my own, thinking about myself only..."

But after a while, it got lonely.... really... lonely... =(

Even so, i don't wanna get into a r/s just cuz i feel lonely now... i wanna be with someone who i really really really love and who loves me just as much. Someone i can look at and say, hey this is the guy i wanna be with all my life, and for him to say the same. One that treasures me so much, and never takes me for granted... one who can be real with me, but still sweep me off my feet at the most unexpected times... someone who'll be there for me through everything and will never abandon me.... someone who won't hurt me... and even if he did, i can forgive easily cuz i know he would do the same if i ever hurt him....

ok ya... I JUST GOTTA WAIT AND SEE! =)

Don't get me wrong, i AM happy now! i love my life, i love my family, i love my frenz! =)

One day i'll find that guy.....

GE

2011-05-07T08:22:00.000-07:00

Cuz i don't wanna get jailed for this by the new party of my GRC, i'm gonna be subtly obvious. So if they wanna use it against me, i'll say I'm not even explicitly mentioning them.

I dunno why, but the GE results for aljunied TROUBLES ME. sorry if u disagree. i don't wanna start fighting with anyone about it ok? let me just be upset and vent my frustration here, and just say that i cant believe i'll be seeing hammers around my area.... ok don't sue me, or judge me, or bring me to court or whatever ok? Fine, u want a change, ok, go ahead. but seriously?

So everyone got heated up during the "hammers" rallies because they berate "lightning" so badly... ok ya, the big boss did say some quite (if not very) offensive and harsh words like "regret" if the voters vote for the opp... but wait a minute, hold on a second...

Dear voters, u are voting for the opp cuz of what the big boss says, and this exacerbated ur anger on the things that "Lightning" did wrongly, like high cost of living (which hello, last i checked, oil prices have been increasing LARGELY and this is an external factor, meaning the ruling govt couldnt do anything about it, and oh yeah, cuz we mostly import stuff, even FOPs to make our exports, and they are expensive too ok.), to name a few of course...

oh ya so wait, in AL, the big boss isn't part of the lightning team here right?

So what u are saying is, you voted for hammers becuz u thought lightning=big boss =govt that did a hundred and one things wrong (in your eyes, cuz u forget that they are human beings too)

And you didn't consider that the lightning team in AL were made up of totally different ppl, one of which was our dear FM (GY) who was humble and sincere enough to acknowledge the party's mistakes and want to do something better?

So just cuz u forgot that the lightning team were a different set of people and instead linked the AL team directly to the big boss and all the problems of the party, u voted for Thor (hammers... ok?)

Wow, thanks, thanks a lot... you seriously let emotions get the better of u didn't ya. Instead of thinking , "hey wait a sec, the lightning team has been serving us for 23 years and so far, no majorly big boo boo... (ok if u count the foreign workers' dorm thing, they actually found a compromise and a solution after hearing out the people's woes!)

Alright fine, let's just see if hammers are able to build (pun intended) a better GRC here, or would they produce a sloppy job and the whole building collapses anyway.

You know what, maybe this time, with Thor winning, it could be good...

cuz at least it'll show people that even their dear opp CAN MAKE MISTAKES AND MAY NOT EVEN LISTEN TO YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE.

People, somestimes you forget that as humans, WE ARE NOT PERFECT AND WE MAKE MISTAKES. FORGIVE PEOPLE!

2011-04-26T08:45:00.000-07:00

I was so bored, i felt like this sums up what was going through my mind lol! (posted on fb, but i'll post here for convenience)

The onset of boredom corrodes sanity, and in turn leaves your mind vacant to delusions, leading gradually to brash actions and reckless thoughts...

Yeah ok, firstly, I'm just.. bored. Not that i don't have anything to do. I've yet to reject 2 uni offers (although it is really tempting to just accept all, but i can only be in 1 uni... sad... lol! nah... i'm just overly ambitious... accepting all? WTF.. i'm crazy!) I must really thank GOD that all 3 unis accepted me! i'm really so happy and SO SO GRATEFUL! Thank you Jesus!! =)

ok what was i talking about? right... that I'm so bored even though i have things to do... i just don't feel like doing it. It's like all of a sudden, i have no plan.... i'm just waiting to finish up my work (by this saturday), and although i'm thinking o writing cards to my colleagues, i seem to just be letting the boredom penetrate my mind and the only way to kind of block of the full penetration is to..

stalk.

YA! i know rite, i'm crazy! I've been trying to find a twitter/facebook page of... someone... that i met during one of my uni interviews.. (I KNOW SHAMELESS T.T) He was the admin staff there... like helping out with the undergraduate admissions... BUT he's only 2 years older.. he got offered the job after he came out of army since he'll be in the current Uni that he's working at when term starts.

It's like, i'm pretty sure, maybe about 70% sure, that he showed quite a keen interest in me that day... and i'm just.. interested... to know whether he really IS interested in me... or is it all uni guys just get excited over "Fresh meat". ah dang, if that's the case, that's just... sad. haha! even so! Why didn't he even try to find my on fb or sms me although he obviously knows my name and number?! (ok, i asked my guy frenz and they said that if he were to look at my contact details, which are supposed to be confidential, then that makes him really low) Still! It would be nice to at least feel like there's someone still attracted to me rite? i mean... I'm sorry but a little attention would be nice!!!!

So ya, since he hasnt smsed me/find me on fb or twitter (probably he too thinks it's low, i've been trying to maybe get a glimpse of him over the internet... but i only know his first name! so i have no idea how to go about identifying the correct one T.T

We kinda hit it off quite well that day when we were talking b4 my interview. He brought me to the waiting area and we started talking about totally random stuff... that's when i learnt he would be in the same academic year as me (cuz of NS) and that he was from the school of E... which is next to the school of soc (that i got accepted into!) Well, obviously on that day, i wouldn't know that i would definitely have a place in the school of soc, but ya... i thought we talked quite well. Talked for a good 15 mins or so b4 he had to check on the guy b4 me who was finishing up his interview. He kinda leaned against the wall and.. STARED AT ME... LIKE FULL ON! At that point i thought, ok... that's a little creepy... i'm wiggling my toes in my shoes and u go like "ahh, a sign of anxiety huh?" like whuuuut? lol

But i thought he was pretty cute tho. Much taller than my guy frenz (HAHA), broad, decent-looking, and i thought i felt a little bit of chemistry while we talked.... like, although it was a little wakward at first, I gradually became more comfortable with him... =)

Or maybe all SMU guys are just generally really forthcoming and are easy to talk to... i have no i-dea!! (experience from post clubbing.... my cousin's friend just started talking to me like he's known me for a long time lol!)

That's a plus.. really it is! =)

Anw, so back to the guy i was talking about. so ya, after my interview, he led me out of the hallway into the common corridor and bid me good luck! When i went out, i saw that there were a lot of people waiting outside! My question was... hey, how come he didn't ask the other people (mostly girls) to wait inside the hallway where the interview room was? In other words, why did he lead me in first and wait with me outside the interview room... but when it was my turn for my interview, he didn't call anyone else in?

WAS HE TARGETTING ME IN THE FIRST PLACE! (cuz as a matter of fact, he called my name and asked me to follow him in 0.o )

.... ok the way i put it, it sounds pretty creepy... BUT TRUST ME! he's cute! ^^ haha!

oh gosh i cant believe i'm talking about some guy who i just met like in 1 day and hasnt contacted me...

LIKE I SAID!

Can i have some drama pls... it's kinda getting boring.. and i would like a little attention from him.. hehe.. kthnxbye..

HAHAHA!

ANW! i'm going into the same U as him anw... I swear my choice of school isn't soley based on this guy i met that day ok! i am NOT SHALLOW! I've long set my eyes on this Uni cuz of the intermingling of social sciences with economics which i like! and their general education allows me to take DANCE as a module! HOW COOL IS THAT! ^^ super EXCITE! =D

so anw.... when i start my freshmen year... maybe i would see him again... or maybe someone else would show a keen interest in me... and maybe i would respond too! (or not... depending on whether i feel there's any chemistry or i just feel that the guy can only be viewed as a friend!)

Yep! pretty exciting stuff! I'm pretty excited to start Uni and see what new experiences it would give me!

As for now, i can only continue to think about "what ifs" and "maybes" because i'm really not sure myself!! it's fun to think about these things sometimes, tho it can be quite frustrating! but its cool! =) who knows, maybe drama would find me when i least expect....

and that always happens...

lol!

2011-04-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

we all desire to be loved..

I'm delusional. I don't proclaim out loud to the people around me that i am still upset that i got rejected flat out by someone whom i thought i really really liked... and well, i'm still bitter about it... but right now, maybe i'm just feeling a little sense of emptiness..

I see my friends with their partner, and i see that they really love each other.... and i just think to myself... i want that. No, i won't be upset around them... in fact, i'm really happy FOR them. They're my friends, and i've formed friendships with their partners as well. I'm totally open to them, and often enough, i go out with them.... well, quite a lot actually. Always the 3rd person... but it didnt rally bother me... cuz i'm friends with both parties.

But sometimes, i do feel lonely, i do feel like i want to be needed, want someone to be interested in me. Today, I was just having a chat with someone... and there goes my imagination, thinking that he might have a hint of interest in me... like whuuuut?? ok he keeps observing me, but maybe he just observes everyone! Right? Argh Whatever...

Ya, sue me. I like attention. I think those are my cheap thrills, knowing that someone is mildly interested in me... Ya, shoot me, i like to receive those kind of attention from guys ok...

I'm just searching, I want to feel empowered, like i have the ability to make guys turn their heads and look at me, even for a while... of course, it would be preferred if the guy is decent-looking... anything less, and they're just creeps.

Well, as far as i know, not a lot of people read my blog... and blogs aren't read as feverently as before... that's why i'm saying all these things... I don't care anymore... i may look desperate.... i'm not ok... i'm just... i just need someone to fill up this empty void. This void, which was created by false love, betrayal, regret, disrespect, and fickled-mindedness.

Hey, don't judge desperate people... now that i think about it, i kinda understand how they feel. of course, there are those who are truly sluts and just crave guys attention or go boy crazy, and there are those who have been hurt multiple times, and all they are craving for is just someone to prove how special they are...

I'm pretty independent, and i'm pretty confident in myself... i guess lately, i just need some reassurance. I want to experience chemistry with someone.

...

2011-03-03T20:08:00.000-08:00

i've been staring at this page for a while now. It's like, i really dunno what else to blog about lol! Well yes, the cliche woul be to blog about my emotions on this BIG DAY, where i will finally get my A level results...

But honestly, i'm not really worried. I'm more excited than worried. i wanted to say this out loud in twitter and facebook, but i know that'll just make me look conceited and arrogant. i mean, i havent gotten back my results, what am i so happy about? haha.

It's just that, i truly believe i've given my all and fought a good fight. I've resisted temptations of going out with the other classmates just cuz they wanna have fun in the last year of jc, and i've really kept to being consistent. It was tough knowing that i'll be looked upon as a wannabe nerd or a hardworker who doesn't know how to have fun, but i really believed that without the hard work that i have put in, i wouldn't be feeling this calm... and even this excited to get my results back.

I'm going into the hall, confident, not conceited, and calm, not arrogant. it's gonna be alright, God will make my way and keep me on the straight path. =)

Having a brother in the same school has it's perks too. He keeps updating me on what the teachers' reactions are to the results and so far, they have all been good =) i can't reveal what they said and for what subjects, but as far as i'm concerned, i'm pretty safe.

At around pm i'm gonna meet Mei and Jing, buddies since pri sch. I love them so much! I'm glad they asked me along before we all head to school for the results! This shows how much our friendship still means to us all! My jc frenz.... aiya they didn't eve bother to ask me... so i'm not gonna care... HHAHAHHA! whatever... i'll see them in the class queue anyway.

I've come so far, and this is the reward for the battle fought. It's like a scenic image, of us all gathering at the king's podium, while we await the news of our victory that we know in our hearts, it has already been achieved. I thank God for pulling me through and making sure i really stick to being hard working and consistent, despite certain disappointments and certain confused emotions.

I've come this far, all i have to do now is to collect my prize. =)

To all my friends collecting the results, go with peace at heart and mind that you've fought a good battle... even if you think you didn't, the fact that you didn't give up halfway and really sat down and did the A levels is telling enough that you have engaged your enemy in the best way you possibly could have. Have heart! =)

it's 12.20pm. Gonna get ready to go to school!!

In God i trust!!!

2011-02-25T09:05:00.000-08:00

To love is to let go...

That took me a very long time to finally comprehend, but i finally do now. I can't believe i've learnt that lesson from a fictional story lol! But isn't that the beauty of stories? It teaches us lessons, lessons that we may have heard before, but we never truly understood. Weave in a memorable storyline and the re-emphasis of the moral, and finally, i understand.

I'm letting go of A. I've come to realise that if i continue to love him, nothing is gonna come out of it but more hurt, since he doesn't have feelings for me anyway. What's the use of forcing myself onto him, when he isn't willing to accept my love? No one deserves to be forced upon, because if one tries to love without truly loving, it would just be an empty feeling, a chore, a baggage that one has to carry...

That's why i decided to fully let go. It isn't worth emotionally and mentally hurting myself with depressing thoughts and trying to force my love on someone else. I let go so that i can let that person find love in his own way, at his own time. As for me, i'm sure that i would meet someoen who would make me feel so special, and one whom i admire, one whom i can love just as much, and show him how special he is to. I would find someone who would protect me and won't give me up, just because he believes in the bond between me and him. There may be people trying to seperate us or hurt our r/s, but as long as he believes in me and i believe in him, there's no way we'll be seperated.

So that's it. I'm not gonna do anything. I'll wait. I won't rush into relationships, i'll definitely find someone who sees my worth and more, and whom i also see his worth and more. i'll take my time to look, and i'm sure he'll be there. =)

This is the meaning of letting go. To let myself live, to let the other party live too. It's all gonna be alright.

haha, and for now, i'm more inspired by family relationships or friendships, just cuz of the stability i see in them, and the unbreakable trust that i've witnessed. They're the ones backing me up baby! =)

So i'm not gonna cry over him anymore. I'm not gonna wait, i'm not gonna sigh. I'm just gonna smile, cuz now i'm free... i've let go. I can breathe easy again.. =)

Jodie

a blog post i've always wanted to write about

2011-01-13T04:30:00.000-08:00

Experiences make me stronger, memories make me vulnerable.

I was thinking about how i've been through a lot over the years. Of heart breaks, of missed opportunities, of regrets, of insecurities, not just in relationships but with friendships, of jealousy, of happy times i wished didn't go away. When i think about it, i realised with each experience, i became stronger, more strong-willed, and more independent. But when i recall some of the bittersweet memories of the past, it makes me... even more vulnerable and melancholy than i ever expected. So interlinked, experiences and memories, yet so different emotions put to it, so many different consequences.

I was on the bus back home from work today, and i was just thinking back to my past, to someone i tried to forget about but simply can't. Then i suddenly thought about cs... and i realised, i certainly, if not completely, forgot all the things i did with him. It was a complete blur. Seriously. i was just thinking, who was he? I didn't feel we had a relationship, or even a friendship to begin with. Harsh, i know. He's a nice guy, granted. But somehow, i just forgot about him. I even found it impossible that I even had a relationship with him, it was all a blur.

Instead, m heart ached when i thought about A. I got the answers to the questions that has been lingering since 2 years ago, and i really, honestly tried to move on, knowing that he doesn't want a relationship at all. Sometimes i'm all just "Yeah, you're right, i don't want this either. I don't want to be in a f***ed up relationship again". The more i try to get over him, the more impactful the memories become. Why? I wish i wouldn't be so vulnerable when memories of him and i hit me. It sucks to be bonded, to be tied down by this hopelessness. But i know, still, and as much as i hate it because i hate being controlled, a part of me, like an itch i cannot get rid of, still wants him to accept me back once again, and both of us start something new, having forgiven. Silly i know. i hate to feel so burdened about this. I try to hate him even... but i can't. It's more painful to hate someone i care about so much, than to love someone who isn't ready for all this crap with relationships.

Believe me, right now, all i wanna do is to have fun. Meet new people, flirt a little, being chased a little, being empowered...but that vulnerability of still having him at the back of my mind, closes me off from the world, and it's as if this is trying to shelter me away from it all, when all i want is to break free and experience new things, be happy in different ways, get hurt in different ways, whatever...

It ain't gonna happen, isn't it? As long as i still hold on to that small hope of receiving his love once again, i'm never gonna let go, and i'll never be able to leave my past totally behind and head straight for my future.

I really hate this. I want to break free of these chains and just live life to the extreme...

but at the same time, i don't wanna forget about him.

Damn...

There's a quote i stumbled across on twitter...

"It's easy to pretend that you love someone when you don't, but it's not easy to pretend that you don't love someone when you do."

Love is a tricky thing huh? That warm feeling you get when you're close to someone you think is the world to you, but any minute, any opportunity, it'll tear you apart.

My friend, Ryan, made a point.

Love always hurts. Not being a pessimist, but really, think about it. When you're so in love with someone and you're not with that person at that time, even if you're in the most stable relationship, you'll miss the other. Missing someone so dear to u, hurts like hell. And of course, who can forget disappointments when one's partner doesn't meet one's expectations, or when you've got too much of the other that you're so sick of it, and the eventual break up.

Truth is, we'll never know what love is. Stop trying to put a definition to it. Take it as your own, take it as it is... even though it is still so imperfect. That's love, accepting that it's not gonna be perfect, but delighting in it anyway. Maybe with this mindset, we won't feel so disappointed when love doesn't present itself as a fairytale, but a reality that we can accept.

Here's another thing. If you can't accept an aspect of your partner, no matter how much he claims to love you and shower you with all the love he thinks he has, that's not real love. You don't love your partner if you can't even accept his flaws, even that one flaw. So be a brave girl/guy, and get the hell out of that relationship. It's not fair to you, it's not fair to your partner.

That's what happened to my failed relationships. I couldn't live with their imperfections... so i left. One day, when i find someone whom i can totally and wholeheartedly accept, no matter what imperfections that guy has, it'll be the day that i say i found my true love.

Oh and one more thing.

I hate self-pitying bastards.

Grow some balls man, seriously. Have some backbone and have an inner strength that shines out that says "hey, i know i have a difficult situation at hand, but i'm not gonna wallop in self pity and expect you to take pity on me. I'm gonna handle it, not complain about it, solve the problem, and come out a stronger person."

Yeah, here's a hint, this guy i was with quite recently didn't grow enough balls. Too bad. Not my loss.

This is like my most controversial post, and i'm damn open here... mostly because i can't keep it in anymore, and a part of me hopes that if any of the people who i didn't explicitly mention stumbled upon it, they'll get a f**king idea of what i think. And mostly because i'm damn tired from work.

I'm stronger than some guys i previously knew, seriously... so grow some balls.

to post or not to post

2010-12-22T19:39:00.000-08:00

Relationships are just like that aren't they. Friendships can lead to stronger friendships. Friednships can lead to relationships, or relationships can lead to friendships. And yet, friendships can be broken, relationships can stay broken. It's all this back and forth and confusing revelation that makes life so raw, and ironically, so much more bearable to live. Each new day, a hope, a wonder, maybe a disappointment, maybe a heartbreak, maybe a surprise, maybe a reconciliation. Then again, the whole string of "what if"s can suck the very life out of us, and we are left this empty shell, nothing but our inmost thoughts swimming in the sea of vastness.

Sometimes i think i have been there, done that, but then i realise that i haven't quite comprehended the intricacy of relationships, be it frienships, family relations, or love. Recently, i've come to see love from a very different angle. Sure, i knew i had the love of my friends and family, but i was regrettably too caught up with all the romance that i forget the strongest love comes from those i already have around me. An end of a relationship made me realise i had so much more love than i could ever imagine, and i really thank God for this strong support system i already have.

Time is an ever important friend, but it also gets on my nerves. With time, i realised how long i have known someone and yet with time, i've realised how much i've missed out on that person's life. Time created a reason, time created a confusion and time gave rise to a renewing of friendship and heartaches. Perhaps Jeannette Winterson was right when she wrote "Time is a great deadener" in Oranges. You can either see it as time giving you the opportunity, or giving you a new conflict for you to deal with. It's a bit of both for me. Me, trying to be the optimistic one, sees the opportunity, but with it comes a whole string of conflicting emotions and thoughts that it brings me to stasis. Which fork in the road do i take? Should i retreat or move on? Should i even think so deeply into the things that have already happened and wish for more to come?

Our lives are made up of so many different aspects, the notion of love and relationships is but a small matter in this ever growing whirl of the game of life. Studies, career, hobbies, dreams, interests, adventure, risks, finances, are just part of the many things happening in life. Yet i've come to realise that, relationships aside, love connects seemingly every aspect of life. You can beg to differ, but everything we do, is connected to this emotion, or the lack of this. You either love what u're doing or hate it. It's the extremes on a spectrum.

Love spun a web around the little things that we do and before we know it, it has created this interconnection in our lives, whether we like to acknowledge it or not.

You can say i'm a highly emotional person, or a very social person, or someone who has too much time to spend now and is thinking about the complicated situation of my life and vis a vis life in general. Agree or disagree what you like, but damn, this is my most personal blog post yet. My motto of not posting anything too personal has gone down the drain with this one.

Isn't it interesting tho, that when we make an observation about our lives and thus, life in general, we wanna share with others? It's as if a nagging part of yourself is saying that by sharing this, it'll give some insight to whoever, if there is any, reading this. Or in another sense, writing to make sense of my thoughts at the expense of other people's confusion or approval, whichever comes first.

My life is just damn bloody complicated, but it just makes life so much more livable.

Freedom!

2010-11-29T03:39:00.001-08:00

So As are over!! (woohoo! since last fri, 26th nov) and instead of going wild with joy and going partying and all....

1)I've been watching youtube videos since saturday

2)Hitting the gym

3) watching tv

4)thinking about how to apply for my driving lessons

5)having to pack my luggage for Hokkaido (woot! i wanna go to Japan now!!!!!)

6)being nagged by my mom to go look for a job

7)pleading with my parents to let me go to Taiwan with my friends in jan... (mommy wants me to get a job by jan pfft)

8)having to figure out some stuff

You see, Even after the exams have ended, you won't feel the urge to party everyday. You'll just rot at home, run some errands, thinking about your holiday and wishing you can leave the country soon....i'm not even prom shopping yet!

And i have no list telling me what to do.... i wanna dance more than once a week... but i havent gotten down to checking the schedules and all

haha, even after As, I'm still keeping myself busy (coughs)youtubevideosandtvseries(coughs)

Actually, i'm just blogging cuz I need to figure out what i wanna do with so much free time now

ok, given that i'll definitely meet up with friends, old and present and long lost and ...you get my drift...

WHAT ELSE?!

It's funny how I've been longing for this day ever since i started studying for As (since the beginning of the year), and now, nothing to do = bored.

Feeling very lazy.... haha!

Anyway! Some updates of my life (not that anyone would really bother, seriously)

My brother made me get a twitter account. Believe me, i was too lazy to bother, so he made it for me.

But the username is done by me. You can follow me (haha this is so funny, never thought i'll type this)... @jodieodiepodie.

haha cute right! It's actually what my really good friends from pri school call me, odie! And i wanna go taiwan with them!!!

hmmmm, life is unpredictable... yes that's what i experienced sometime before As and after As. It's funny how you think that one chapter of your life has closed, only to be reopened in a little while.

But honestly, i dunno how to respond to it. I think i've just numbed myself so much that i don't know how to feel again, if the situation is left so open ended. but i dont wanna keep my hopes up or down. I'm just gonna wait and leave it as it is. yep yep.

Dang! Why am i blogging such ambiguously personal stuff! haha!

See the irony?

ok, stop throwing lit all over the page.

hmmm.... i need to apply for my driving lessons, shop for winter clothes, shop for a prom dress and misc stuff, go for dance lessons, get my camera, convince my parents to let me go to Taiwan in jan, get a job.... and exercise some more.

Hmmmm... guess that's my plan for now. post exam agenda.

In every situation, no matter how bleak, there's always something to be happy about.

awesome salad!

2010-10-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

No green salad.

Created by Jodie Wong.

So one night (8^th oct 2010), I was ravaging through my fridge for a good ol’ salad, but unfortunately, I’ve ran out of lettuce! No lettuce!!!!! How can u eat salad without salad! I still wanted a salad though, that’s when I saw the tomato. Right! I can totally make a salad with tomatos as the substitute for lettuce!!! Here’s my impromtu recipe!

1 whole tomato, sliced

1 mandarin orange, seeds taken out

a bunch of grapes, preferably between 15-20 pieces

Dressing: Thousand Island (this is variable depending on your taste and preferences haha-not anything too heavy or strong, overpowers the natural sweetness)

1. Arrange the orange slices at the bottom of the plate. You don’t want to get too much of the salad dressing on the orange as it already has a strong and sweet taste.

2. Place the tomato slices around the plate.

3. Place 4-5 grapes in clusters in the gaps between each tomato slices.

4. Squeeze out a generous amount of thousand islands dressing onto the salad, making sure the tomato gets the most dressing

5. Presentation is entirely up to your creativity! =)

Who said food needed to be specifically made in a certain way? Get creative!

My girlfriends make me so so happy!!

2010-05-27T09:12:00.000-07:00

I love my girlfriends!

They keep me so real and grounded! I don't have to try so hard, and they just accept me for who i really am! I can really be who I am when i'm with them. Today has been a very refreshing break from all the emotional stress I've been going through. My girlfriends are so important to me! They are the ones who really know the real me and are all alright with that. They embrace my retarded-ness, blurness, and... everything that i am, without judgement, without discrimination!

The friendships I've forged with my girlfriends since primary school (Mei and Jing) and from my secondary school (JA, Tiffany, HL, Amanda, CC, Zhen Yi, vivienne, Dorothy--> my power clique haha! =D and of course, CHARMAINE! haha) will never be forgotten. I will always treasure these friendships cuz each of you mean so much to me!!! I love you!!!!

Thanks for keeping me real in a world of surreality, and for letting me be just who I am, and for knowing just who I am.

Without my girlfriends, I'll probably be drowning in my insecurities and emotional stress.

LOVE YOU ALL! =*

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL!!! JOIN THE LEGAL GANG lol!! I'm so glad you were so happy when you got the surprise cake =) keep smiling and keep striving!

Dorothy :*tries to smash cake on CC*

cheryl: eh! I'm from Judo one ah!

HAHAHAHHAHAH!!! so cute!!

Today was an extremely enjoyable day for me, even though it was really hectic. Despite the GP paper in the morn (I'm just glad it's over!) and the econs lecture after that (...), I really really REALLY enjoyed my time spent with my girlfriends!!!

Marche with mei and Jing in the afternoon! Yum!! We talked and gossiped and talked and laughed! =)

Choir in the evening. 3rd last practise before our trip! so excited!!

Then it was off to ps to find my clique to celebrate CC's birthday. So sad that Tiffany and Zhen Yi couldnt make it =( Hope to see the whole clique reunited again!!! I had tons of fun with them too!!

I joined them after their movie (clique: you HAVE to watch prince of persia!! It's damn ncie!!), went window shopping at Times, spotlight and comics collection (we could have shopped more but we were too hungry lol!).

Went for dinner at astons at cathay (the queue was massive long!! Thanks HL and viv for qeueing for us first! =) and helping to get the surprise cake for CC!).

We were all so famished!!! Amanda, Juan and CC wanted to steal HL's sausages (NO PUN INTENDED PLS! haha).

We talked, and camwhored, JA and I were making... awkward poses lol! But it was fun! Wait till we see the faces of CS and M! lol! (must be uploaded on fb!!!!!). We were all being retarded and chatty!!! We just had endless things to talk about! Really really fun!

Then surprise cake!!! CC was so happy! yay! we paid our bill and went off, talking away, before going our seperate ways.... awww.....

Really wanna see you all again!! We should totally have a sleepover!!

Once again, Thank you so much you all! I know I can just be myself with you all, and likewise for all of you too!! That's what make our friendships so tight!! =)

23 may 2010- might be a while later when i next blog lol

2010-05-23T05:44:00.000-07:00

I decided to revive my blog for now, cuz it's gonna be a while before i next post! lol.

A levels this year!!! omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg

GP paper (bt2) this thurs OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

OK panicking aside...

Today I took cs to see my dad.

...

HAHAHAHAHHA i bet half of u went "WHAT!"

No, not what u're thinking! CS had to see my dad, a doctor, to get his eyes checked. He has been having red and dry eyes for like a month now and my dad offered to check him up! =D Apparently it's some allergy to the contact lens, so he has to stay off contacts for a month and might have to change contact lens. awwww =(. But good thing he had farsightedness and went to buy a new pair of specs which is really really nice!! It has transparent plastic frames! Really suits him! It was like, nice timing, cuz his current specs broke when his friend accidentally whacked him in the face (purely by accident) when they were playing arnd ytd. Blessing in disguise perhaps? He always wanted a new frame!

Had dance today, was given our exam "index" number thing. I'm number 3!! gosh my jazz dance exam is in june!! That's really fast!! And i still cant do my corner work properly cuz instead of moving diagonally, i go straight to the wall -.- Need to practise my corner exercises!!

Going to czech in first week of June!!! YESSSS!! we're gonna get a high gold for our choir competition!!! I have faith in our choir and myself and definitely have faith in GOD! =) It's gonna be an exciting trip!! We just had a briefing for the trip and it sounds AWESOME!!!! Sightseeing in Vienna and Olomouc, competition, then SHOPPPPINGGG!! we're stopping over at Dubai when we transit on our way to czech and when we come back to sg. The travel agent advised us to look around the first time, then purchase it on our return trip. As Dezmond puts it nicely "eyecandy it first!" LOL! fun fun fun!! I havent packed tho... 1 WEEK AWAY OMG!! woohoooo

school tomorrow... rahhh i need a break. i wanna sleep more!! And i also need a break from certain issues in school....

HAPPY BLOG HAPPY BLOG!

emo ones do not belong here!!

Speaking of school, i better start doing my history essay and my gp summary =S gosh that totally slipped my mind! 0.o

Wished i could see my girlfriends again!!

super noobs on a journey!!!

2009-11-15T06:50:00.000-08:00

Oh my! I know I should have blogged this like few days ago, but i've been awfully tired!!!! haha! Still, on Friday the 13th, it was the most funniest day ever!!!

I like to call this day " Super noobs on a journey!!" With Tiffy and JoJo! (ltr charmz came along)

We planned to go expo for the Robinsons sale going on (today last day... oops!). cuz according to TT, havanas were going for $10!! being the cheapos we were, we decided to go there although we are very good at directions (COUGHS). Thus, our journey begins...

We met each other on bus 22. We were supposed to meet at 1, but as usual, i was late. haha! I was on the bus first, and tiffy got on few stops ltr! We were heading towards PL mrt station. We were exchaging rings (LOL) and crapping, passing through the usual construction sites. Suddenly, we were passing by some HDB flat..... and we were like, "ok, not familiar". So, knowing how genius we are, we decided to continue sitting in the bus as the surroundings became weirder and weirder.... haha oh my, i gotta give u dialouge to understand! FUNNY PART!

JoJo: I think we're lost!!

Tiffy: Neh mind, wait a few more stops, maybe PL mrt nearby

(few stops ltr)

J: I really think we missed the stop!

T: Yeah! not our fault leh! All the construction going on! i remember PL mrt station like right in front of ur face!!

J: Where does 22 go to ah?

T: Ehhhhhhh.... u asking me?

J :(laughs)

(It was drizzling too!)

J: I see the mrt station!! (points to expressway road)

T: ok go down go down

(gets off)

J&T: omg this bus goes to Tampines!!! GREEN LINE! CAN GO EXPO!

T: nvm, next bus next bus!!

(bus 21 to Pasir ris interchange arrives)

We sat at the top of the double decker, at the front row and pretended to be bus drivers!! We talked abt how we got scared last time cuz it felt like the tree could hit us! haha! This is also when i took out my iphone and keyed in: blog this day!

T: Jo ah, that one expressway leh, no MRT LA!! u very noob leh!!

J: eh, 2 noobs go out tog = super noobs ok!

(After 1/2 hr, we finally reached!!)

T: ah, Jo ah, what time now ah?

J: omg 2.15pm!!

T: Not bad not bad, at least ur prediction quite accurate! Still got time!!

J: haha! could have been shorter if we saw paya lebar!

T: not our fault!!! construction site blocking the mrt lor!!

HAHA! so yep, we finally made our way to EXPO, like arnd 2.45? I was famished, so grabbed some subway b4 gg into the sale!! WOOHOO!! Bought a new pair of platform heels for $29,90!! cheap cheap!! Tiffy and i were amusing ourselves with the spray art! (yep, we smelled the box of scented markers... just that it was the BOX we were sniffing at! until the sales person gave us a marker to smell... malu much!!!) Tiffy bought our favourite game!! fishing!! hahahha! went off very satisfied with our purchase, then made our way to Ikea for some light shopping and meatballs!!! Charmz met us there!! ...

...but she had leg cram downstairs and stoned for 5 mins before going upstairs to meet us at the cafe. hahahaha! LOSER!!

Swedish meatballs at ikea were GOOOOOOD!! tried to play our new toys but epic fail... NO BATTERIES!! and my photocopy card got damaged cuz we were trying to unscrew the cover without a screwdriver... LOL!

Had soft vanilla ice cream! Yummyyyyy!!! Charmz treated us! Woohooo!!

All in all, it was an exciting and fun day haha!! I got LOADS TO BLOG TODAY!!!! this will be my first post today! still got

12 Nov (hanging out with frenz from class!! FUN FUN FUN and camwhore!!)

14th nov (SENTOSA WITH DEAREST!!! free rides!! woohoo! Great to have a scholar bf =D)

15th nov <333333333333333>

Need to shower now!! I attempted to study hist today.... but it kinda failed miserably... but nvm! I wasnt in the mood to do so either! lol!!

BRB!

jaaak & TT & KK

2009-11-05T06:04:00.000-08:00

Today was damn fun! haha!

Ok, besides the fact that we had to do pw, i had heaps of fun with my grp and TT! KK joined us for a while but he had to go CCK. It was so funny, it started pouring when he wanted to go off alr, then ask me call cab since he had to be there at 1.30-2pm and the rain was just too heavy to walk out and not get blown away by strong winds! So i called e cab at 12.30, it came around 12.40pm. at 1pm, the rain stopped... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! in ur face KK! Poor thing had to spend money on cab fare when that one hr could have been used to travel to CCK!

the 2 As damn retarded today! One acted like a kid (omg i had to be a mommy!), then got high on V, asked for more, but collapsed on the floor and fell asleep! LOL! so much for being tolerant huh?

The other suck up to my grandma (LOL) and was so amazed at tang yuan! HAHA! Luckily he nvr get high on V! If not damn scary, 2 guys high.... HAHA! it was so retarded!!! but fun!

We made cards for our OP! TT was making some insipration board.... the east and west girls look the same!!! haha but nvm, pretty artistic eh? So anyway, after we fin the cards, me, Kel, TT and Ale went up to play guitar hero on wii! OMG u should really see how Ale played. Damn best la! the note come, she'll lag for like 10s b4 hitting the note! ahha so cute!! (of course this is exaggeration! haha awww!) We were so amused at her natural talent! But it's alright!!! She's new at this so with more practise she'll do awesome!! come my hse again and we can jam! =) TT and Kel quite good eh! We can so form a band! My lil bro was giving us a rather interesting rendition of the songs we selected, but i assure u, our ears were trying to fold themselves up! haha jk jk! He just wanted to have fun! Then again, when i sang living on a prayer, Kel said she almost went deaf! HAHA! awww sorry Kel! next time i'll sing properly! ^^

J's right when she said OP was the most fun of the whole excruciating cycle of PW. I think my group bonded over the many hurdles and setbacks in PW, as well as all the happy memories forged just goofing off, esp thinking of ideas for our WR, and practising for OP together. PW sucks, but the people make it so much more bearable!! =) love u all! I'm kinda gonna miss group time with them, it's so sad when we don't have to meet up as a group anymore. =( Let's not forget about the friendships forged over this tedious 9 month journey! I'll definitely remember all the good times we had! We've gone through a lot as a group. Disappointment, anger, hurt, being demoralised, but also all our retarded times, fun, joy and the enjoyment of working together to achieve a common goal. Just about our group, I'm really honestly going to miss it! (Screw PW tho! haha! It's the people that I love!! ^^)

Hope we'll have another "party", but this time, the rest of the ppl must come too ok! it'll be great!!

Time to edit and memorize my script! (Tho i think I'll just fall asleep real soon, i'm so tired!! All the excitement from playing Wii!! HAHAHA)

Till next time!
(See, I have happy posts too!! ^^)

Confusing much?

2009-10-29T08:10:00.004-07:00

Oh my, the previous post so emo.... and i left it as that for so long!!!

Don't worry! I'm still here! I promoted! WHEEHEE! I'm really so grateful and thankful to God for this miracle!!

WR finally submitted!!! Mistakes happen, but our very clever teacher sent it to MOE although deadline is tmr..... ok la fine.. thanks so much. ANW! nvm alr seriously... i'm just so glad it's finally over!! PW has been a bitch! Can't wait for it to end!!!! then the REAL celebrations kick in!!! BOOYA!!

I'm just wondering.... are u denying it? Mannn it's blatantly obvious, but apparently U've been confusing yourself as well. Haizzz. Truth is, I can't really understand your signs sometimes... Too many people are invovled in the guessing game. It's about time to face up to it. I would encourage it my friend.

Chinese A lvl next Monday (2nd nov), and OP on 9th. OMG IT'S GONNA BE OVER SOON!!! WHEEEEE!!!

That's it folks, one whole academic year, lived and let lived. Many events have been documented, each with a story to tell, each with a secret to keep, each kept within. I'm real glad my class has bonded over a matter of grave concern, and in many ways more than that! You want unity? we'll give it to u in your face!

Gosh I'm feeling so litty today!!!! Must be the effects of sleeping at 2am for 2 consecutive nites due to PW!!! HAHAHA. Gosh how i detest it. -.-

One thing I've learnt in JC is this; don't try too hard to impress people. I've fallen into that trap and have been struggling to release myself for the whole year, but i'm glad that i have finally taken a leap of freedom and shown who I really am. The more you try, the more people hate....

...then again, another thing is, I shouldn't even worry about what people think of me. I live for myself first, then i can help others. I don't live to please other people, especially if I simply cannot bear the mere presence of some...

Just SMILE!!! That's a policy i used to live with... and i should continue living by it. Seriously, I've been seeing less smiles on my face cuz of the cursed subject.... but i shouldnt let it bog me down, neither should any one of us! Yes it's tedious, but mann, we created it!! Although it has been a long process, it's ultimately ours! (Although certain intervention tried to prove otherwise)

Ok, i better go to bed now or i'll lose my mind after having lost proper sleep. I still have to go to school by 7.10am tomorrow!!!! So early!!

Till next time,

<3>

And the name Roselle resonates in my head

What am i feeling so burdened!

2009-10-14T23:45:00.000-07:00

Sigh.

I shouldn't be feeling this down....

I don't even know what's gonna be, or what it will be.

So...

Why the hell am i feeling so pressured and crestfallen.

Whatever mann, i'll just face up to it.

Tomorrow.. yep tomorrow we'll all know...

I want to believe and i wanna trust that everything will be fine. But no matter how much i try to psycho myself... i somehow can't be hopeful about it...

WHY!!!!!!!!

-.- this is annoying. the waiting, the suspense.

My perfect day that i thought would happen today... well...

Life's like that.

I WANT to be hopeful and trust that things will be fine.... and no matter what happens i gotta accept it.

damn... get over it Jodie.

I now realise.

2009-06-08T04:03:00.000-07:00

Ever feel like a song can really just speak to you and is a reflection of your life?

That's how I felt when I head this song-"Bless the broken Road" by Rascal Flatts.

Darling, I wanna dedicate this song to you!! Never have I met anyone who loves me so much and continued to pursue me even though I have forgotten how to love because of being hurt so many times.

Never have I met someone who never gave up on me, knowing that as long as you kept loving me and showering me with care and concern, you were able to heal my broken heart and taught me how to love again.

You mean so much to me!

"Bless The Broken Road" ©Rascal Flatts

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus]

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

I love you CS! =)

back!!

2009-06-08T03:47:00.000-07:00

Yes I am backkkk!!!!

I'm sorry that my blog turned cold, been so busy! Now that it's the holidays, I can FINALLY update! (even though there's this nagging feeling asking me to study. haha!)

Everytime I sit down and think of what to blog about, I realise that I have proceeded into a new chapter of my life. Yet, though it may seem new, I hold on to the good old times I've spent with my dear friends, while moving on in this chaotic and hectic world. Some things never change, like the love we share as a group of wonderful, caring friends.

I just had a fantastic BBQ at Tifffany's place yesterday! We joked, crapped, laughed (in fact when i went into her room, that was the first thing i did. Reason, my dear girl is still playing neopets!! haha! XD) and shared about how much we missed each other.

10 of us, all separated into different schools or classes...

Yet, 10 of us, a special bond continue to hold us together and transcend all boundaries and separations.

We're tight alright!!

I miss them so much! We shared about how we were in school, and how we sometimes feel so lonely in the midst of many of our friends and classmates. We shared about culture shocks in school and how....

we just wanted US again, all in the same class, joking, smiling, having each other's back.

Don't get me wrong, I love my JC life. I've met wonderful ppl and have a great, fun class! Not to mention, I've found someone really special to me and I love him so. =) Seeee, first time I DARE to proclaim outrightly eh?

Still, I never wanna trade my time with my dear ol Secondary school frenz for anything! They mean so much to me!

Yesterday, I could finally relax, kick off my shoes and totally be myself and be accepted for that! Never worrying about hiding behind anyone's shadow cuz each of us have equal attention, equal acceptance.

I miss them.

I miss US!

I guess, we will always fail to see that we take things for granted until they really go away. I'm feeling it now.

I realise how much I treasure my frenz from secondary sch, and i realise what it means to be loved and cared for by true friends.

Everywhere we go, we will always meet people.

These people will becomes your friends or acquitances.

Some are special, some are just meant to stay as acquintances.

But when the time comes, only then will you know who your true friends are.

Cheers everyone!! Love you all!
Jodie

2009-02-09T01:05:00.000-08:00

Hi!!
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Yeah I haven't updated for like what, 6 months oO I can explain!

1) O-levels! wow that was the toughest man!!!!
2) Lots of social gatherings. Yes I do have a life
3) erm... ... reading manga?
4)... ok Ii was just lazy, happy?

Anyway, the new school year has started! Did pretty well in my major exams ( O levels) 5 As and 3 Bs. alrite grades I guess. I'm still thankful tho =D

I got into SA!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! It's entirely thru God's grace, seriously! =)

I'm still in choir (appealed to SA thru choir so...) but it's alrite, I'm still quite happy.

Thus begins a new chapter in my life. Oh boy, I'll be even more busy! Lectures, tutorials, choir. Somehow, busi-ness always finds poor Jodie.

Hmmmm..... SA ROCKS!

I miss my friends from sec school tho. They're such fun ppl! Miss them so much!!!!

Ohoh! I had the best steamboat with my frenz last sat! We were playing mahjong too haha! That day my fengshui not very good, I didn't win at all! After that, HL, CC, me and JA went high and started singing random songs! We suddenly started screaming and CC, HL and I were speaking with acccent and puting Z after every word! hahahah We were too whacky !!

Ooops, better go! The library person just switched off all e comps. I'm the only one left! oO

Till next time!

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2008-06-20T21:22:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!

I found a really good article on what true love is. It's a Christian article so that's a plus =) Do read it, it's really inspiring.

Ehhh oops i can't post it up here cuz of copyright law, so go check out http://www.christiananswers.net/q-dml/dml-y030.html. Believe me, U'll understand what true love is. Even if u're not a Christian, it's good to read it. =)

Basically, the main idea is that love isn't just emotions, but devotion and action. That really caught my attention. I've always thought that love IS an emotion, and u need emotions to express it to another person. However when I saw the word "devotion", it was as though it was something so important that i've missed out.

Sure, I value commitment, I value respect, but devotion is even stronger than that. The article goes on to say,

Christ was devoted to us enough to give up his own life, because he loves us so much.

That's the biggest devotion ever!

So you see, sometimes we can't expect so much from someone we love, sometimes we have to just be devoted and be patient.

Avoid being paranoid that he/she will leave you, avoid jumping to conclusions. Stop thinking that he/she is bored of you! You can't make assume cuz it would really hurt you. PLus, the opposite might happen! He/she might be really sick of your paranoia that he/she starts to get bored of you or avoid you, so don't give him/her a chance to be bored of you at all!

If two people are devoted to one another, there is a sure guarantee that nothing will go wrong!

Remember, "Love is patient, love is kind...... it always protects, always trusts, always hopes." 1Corinthians 13:4-8

Yep, that's what i wanna share with all of u! Hopefully i can remember what i've learnt from this and apply it to my life.

Be devoted, and the relationship will definitely go well. =)

This doesn't just refer to couples, but with friends and family too. So basically, it applies to everyone.

Hope the article will impact u as much as it impacted me! =D

Jojo

2008-05-31T09:39:00.000-07:00

Hey guys I'm back again =) Seems like i came back earlier than i thought.

I just watched some eps of gossip girl and it got me thinking. Oh by the way, you should know how scandalous gossip girl is. With the new eps, it's even juicier! Anyway!

Looking at our society, it's pretty much the same. I guess the show's trying to highlight all the teenage stuff that's happening to all of us. Back-stabbing, hiding dark secrets that some people know and want to use against you etc. It's a scary society out there, but it's real alright.

i think all of us has fallen prey to this. People out there know lots about us, and they can use it to their own advantage....or disadvantage. If they're not happy with you, they ruin you. Tell it to all their frenz, see what happens to u. You'll just die. You think being ostrasized isn't bad enough? Think again.

For me, I dunno why certain things are happening now. For instance, since the start of this yr, ppl who were ok with me last yr, hate me now or can't be bothered with me. What did i do wrong people! Sure they think I'm a goody-goody who follow all the rules and suck up to higher authority. Think again.

I'm seriously sick of how people judge me. Sure I try not to get in trouble, but i bend some rules. And just because I do, some people don't like it. Reality check, you're doing it as well.

I don't get it! Why are people so judgemental! I am a very sensitive person. If you hate me or have something against me, I know it!

It's sickening. Everyday I go to sch i just noe there are people out there who's just waiting for the right opportunity to strike. There are people who i used to be ok talking to, now they just diss me off. What's going on? I don't freaking noe!

Look i noe, from my previous posts, that i come across to you guys as someone who's pretty cheerful. I am. However there are just certain things that really bug me, including this.

I hate it even more that people think I AM judgemental. The moment someone looks at me and condescends me, isn't that judging me already?

But the thing that bugs me the most, is why i can't be someone who i really am in front of everyone else. I can only truly be myself when I'm with my closest frenz, or complete strangers. All who have labelled me and thought that i was some sort of nerd and "perfect prefect", I tend to act it. I HATE IT! I don't live for them! argh!

Do I look like the perfect prefect to you? DO I?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Sheesh!

I'm not angry at certain individuals. I'm just annoyed at all these behaviours and attitudes I've been receiving.

I know how people feel. I know it.

Phew, alright i think i should stop. Don't you think these things happen to you as well? Humans are two-faced.....even me. So no one's perfect. I just see certain things that cause me to be upset. I know more than you think. But i wont blackmail. that's insane. You wanna see what blackmailing is, go watch gossipgirl. Don't ask me. lol

P.S. To those who take offence in this, I'm sorry but this is how i feel right now. Not happy? Live with it.

JoJo

2008-05-25T23:02:00.000-07:00

Hey all! Chinese O level is OVER!!!! Paper 1 and 2, but still the bulk of the exam is gone!!!!! Hoping to get my A! Must must must!!!!!

And that's the reason why I've abandoned blogger after my mid years. I was studying chinese for 2 weeks! oO Almost died but after a while, it kinda became my habit. Now i feel weird not studying chinese.... OH NOOO! I'm turning into a chinese freak! Oh well, just get my A and I'll be happy!

Do you think sec 4s should still continue planning for their CCAs even after they step down? I clearly dont think so. I mean, what with O levels and all, we hardly have the time to plan! What are your views? I'm not exactly very keen. However the internet is a dangerous place, whatever I type here might leak out to others. Blehhh I'll just shut up.

I really wanna get into Dance in JC!!!!!! Don't mind rock climbing too, but i rather much dance.

I wanna continue to trust in the Lord for the rest of my O level exams. It's not over!!! There's still end year! must work hard!!!!

To all sec 4s, It isn't over yet, but never ever ever give up! This is just a hurdle in life that we must overcome. As they say, victory taste sweeter when you put in your 150% into whatever task entrusted to you. Start studying now!!!! haha. Everyday do a little bit, and in a week you can finish quite a lot! With the right amount of effort, perseverance and Trust in the Lord, we can do everything!!!!!! In Chirst Alone, we place our trust! XD YAY!

However, dont study yourselves to death! Sleep well, eat well and take studying as hmmm enjoyment, not torture. Finish the race that we have started guys!!! If u need time for relaxation, get out of your house! Go enjoy for 1 day or so k!

Alrite, enough said from me haha! I don't think i'll be blogging much. Will be mugging I HOPE. Hmmm actually next time i come here, i wanna discuss a controversial issue. Anyone has any topic in mind, leave me a tag, i wanna respond. =) Happy holidays everyone!!!! Have fun, but rmb to catch up on your work! All play and no work makes us bored actually haha!

See ya around!

P.S. Remember to leave a tag!!!!

2008-03-23T01:42:00.001-07:00

You wanna know how my life is right now?

It's been crazy, literally, just crazy!

I suffered from emotional breakdowns, felt so many painful emotions, almost went numb and couldn't feel anything anymore.

But u noe what? I'm sick of this.

I'm giving up.

Maybe it's not the time now, maybe later, maybe never.

Right now, I'm sick and tired of getting pulled by the reigns.

JoJo does not get rejected, but gets to reject!

Today's Easter

And what someone said was right...

"Easter marks a new beginning, with more surprises installed"

Today is the day that the Lord has made!

Today, 2000 years ago, Jesus rose from the grave

He lives alright, he lives.

And Because he lives, I have all the right reason to continue living my life.

A new beginning, and i'm gonna embrace this.

Forget what happened to me all this time and strain ahead towards the unexpected.

Yes, it would be hard,

Yes, it might be painful,

I have done stupid things,

I was careless with my speech and hurt a special person more ways than one.

But everything is gonna be alright now.

Just because, Jesus lives.

Because he lives, hope exist

Because he lives, Love exist

Because he lives, Joy exist

Because he lives, I live.

I'm not gonna let myself kill my insides.

I serve a living God, A wonderful loving God.

So how can i be dead inside? I'm alive alright, and whatever that has happened, happened.

Soon the pain will be erased

and friendships will be formed once again.

No matter how long, there is still hope, love and Joy.

Simply because, Jesus Lives!

2008-02-24T03:30:00.000-08:00

*walks in*

Wow been a while since I came here! Everything's so dusty and messy and....

Ya I noe I noe, I havent updated for like what, ages? lol! Been busy with Common tests and other stuff. COMMON TESTS OVER! XD

Prefects' installation coming up this wednesday! wow so exciting! hahahaha!

Synapse coming up 2 weeks from now, Sat! WOW SO SO EXCITING!

BUT the most exciting thing is..............

MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING UP!!!!! REMEMBER THE DATE 6TH MARCH!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Anyway, things have been going well, just that I'm always in constant activity. Sometimes I wonder when I can truly take a break without worrying abt things that I have to do. (like hmmm, take homework for example. I'm supposed to be doing chem but where am i?)

Makes me wonder, can we ever take thing slowly?

In this fast paced world, we expect everything to be done as soon as possible. People always go "get it done ASAP!" never "oh take ur time, we're in no hurry =)"

There are expectations to live up to, tasks to complete and more assignments and stress from school. We never get a time to fully relax dont we?

However, when the holidays swing by, we complain that we're bored. "nothing to do, just stay home slack" is a common thing to hear.

So what exactly do we want? Stress or rest?

Lately, I have just too many commitments. SO MANY THINGS CLASH TOGETHER! But you noe something, I enjoy almost every thing I have to do! I enjoy worship practices, prefects' installation rehearsals, synapse preps, studying with my friends etc etc. The down part is that I just cant get much shut eye..... technically i'm the one to blame... cuz i'm lazy! hahaahahaha!

You've just spent 3 minutes of your time reading my random thoughts! How fascinating don't you think! XD

So that u wont get bored, here's some pictures to laugh or marvel (coughs really?) at.

This is soooo random! I found is somewhere and couldn't stop laughing! Hope you can see the words! =)

Dancers and I getting ready for e TNG opening! (so sad couldnt dance with them due to health probs. BUT I WILL SOON!) Glorify the Lord with the feet, DANCE!

MILANO! Italy! Really coold out there brrrr!

Dogs in Italy are borned models! They pose for you and let you take pictures of them! haha!

Melissa and I at pompey! Where the ruins were. Check out that big WALL! XD

2007-12-27T02:55:00.000-08:00

Heys! Jodie's back!!!

And have been back since 2 days ago, just didn't hop onto blogger.

So MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! ^.^

Yeap, I just came back from Italy. It's a great place, REALLY great place!!!!! I'm not joking!

Although the tour was a little rushed since we only had 6 official touring days, it was enjoyable and I really learnt a lot about their history. We got to see many many paintings and art done by famous Artists of the past, like Michel Angelo, Leonardo Da Vinci, Bontecello (cant recall his actual name) and many more!!!

Got to see lots of cathedrals!!!! They were beautiful! The architecture is just sooo wonderful! Gotta love it! Of course, it IS the house of God, so it's wonderful nevertheless.

Ya noe, the baptistry, cathedral and the bell tower are 3 separate buildings, but they all belong to the main church. It's real diff from the churches here, where they perform baptism in the church.

By the way, did any one noe that the leaning tower of Pisa (which I saw, SO COOL! was really leaning! Show u guys real soon) is actually a bell tower next to a huge beautiful cathedral? Yes it is! Pretty neat huh?! I didn't noe that till my tour leader told me. hahahah!

Venice is wonderful! It's a beautiful place! It's actually made up of many islands tog, so there's mainland Venice and the diff parts out at sea, like the "sinking city". They make wonderful glass ware, and I got to see a glass demo! It was awesome! They make really pretty masks too! My dad got a red glass goblet, and I got a really pretty purple masks and glass candies! They produce lace too, but I didn't get em.

Also, I lost my ipod in mainland Venice..... SIGGGHHH! oh welllllsssss

I love Florence too! It's a pretty neat city! They are many statues in florence and the Uffizi Museum is HUGE! Like I spent 2 hours just to see 1 out of the 4 floors that they have! really!

Rome was really neat too! I love Ancient Rome! It's so magical! It's real interesting to see how the romans lived b4, and how they were actually pretty clever. They were the first to build roads actually.

I gotta admit though, Rome's pretty crowded and messy... well it IS the capital of Italy. U noe something, the capical of Italy changed 4 times already. Cant rmb the order, but Milan and Florence and 1 other state were the capital of Italy b4. Cool huh?

There's so much to talk abt and so much fun that I've experienced, I just cant vocalise all of it! lol!

Went with my cousins. It was so fun! My family and my cousins and family made up like, 1/2 the no of ppl who went for the tour. Altogether there were 23 of us plus the tour guide. Decent size group.

Well, Italy is a place where u gotta go visit in ur lifetime! It's filled with Ancient History and culture that u gotta experience.

Oh and just on the note, Italian Food IS GOOD! I liked the pasta and spaghetti! Didn't really enjoy the pizza though. heez. Oh btw, did u noe that Spaghetti is like our rice? It's their staple carbos. Besides that, they also have a choice of half baked (steamed) rice.

Sorry my friend, I gotta contradict u, Spaghetti in Italy is GOOD, not bad like how u made it sound. Thank you very much.

Moving on to when i came back on Christmas. I didn't go for service that day, kinda regret it. I snoozed the whole day cuz we came back at ard 8am that day and I didnt catch a lot of slp on the plane.

26/12- It was a great day! =) Wonderful Wonderful!

btw I watched I am Legend on that day. Kinda freaky, with all the zombies and stuff, after that I thought it was a little off track. I didn't really grasp the concept that well. I was hiding behind my friend the whole time haha!

Hmmm, I think my veoh video should be loaded up! Currently watching Gossip Girl! I cant get some of the eps and I'm really frustrated abt it. If anyone noes of any good site that supplies eps of Gossip Girl S1 from eps 6 onwards, pls let me noe! Thank You!

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JoJo

2007-12-10T05:52:00.000-08:00

Heysss!!!!! Yay 7 more days to Italy! Cant wait!

Today I decided to post pics! XD

Here comes the waves!!!! JUMP HURRY!

Ahhh, I'm so happy with choc! Thanks Sam! (German choc! )

Charmz and me at Tiff's house for our bbq! Hmmm, Charmz looks...

tribal? A tribal bunny?

Watch my back for me =P

Judith and me at Tiff's house! We LOVED the bbq!

yozzzzzz

2007-12-05T08:03:00.000-08:00

Oh horray!!!!!!

My enter key is fixeddddd!!!! woooooo!!!!!

Alright, i'll calm down... haha!

Anyways! Today has been a great day!!!!

... ....

of doing nothing but watching High Sch Musical 2 and Wei Xiao Pasta the entire day!!! =D

Yeap, I'm slowly recovering from my cold. Thank God I feel better now! This cold has been bugging me for the past 3 days and i pray it'll go away by today! shoooo!!

On Joyce Lim's request, I shall blog about Sun (2/12)

Yep, that Sun was the first TNG service at PLMGSS. Felt pretty different, like everyone was scattered all over the place! Us dancers did this promo for e Christmas event coming up! =)

After that, went lunch-ing with Edlyn, Edwin and Joyce Lim (sorry guys, dont mind if i use ur names? Thank you!!! ^^)

During lunch, i almost choked on my food and HOT barely drink, thanks to the hmmm surprises! haha!!

I found out that the peeps that I went for lunch with, they were somehow or another, CONNECTED!

Edwin and Joyce are cousins!!!!!! (choked on prata)

And Edwin and Edlyn are (...........) hehe go fig urself!

and Edlyn's our cell leader, and Joyce is in the same cell grp as me

Seeee!!! LINKED!!!!!

Joyce L, i blogger abt it!!!! hahaha! What Edwin said came true! XD

Hmmms, I haven't heard from Charmaine for a week!! I'm missing her so much!!!! Hey Charmz, if u drop by here, wanna say...

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! I MISS U LOTS!!!!

Yeah! Tmr going out! Finally! Was getting bored being sick and locked up at home >.<

Till next time!

JoJo

P.s. Greeeen, good for the eyes!!! I care about your vision guys! XD

I'm so sianzzzz

2007-12-04T00:20:00.000-08:00

Wow... time sure speeds past us huh? We only have, let's see, 3 1/2 more weeks of school hols left. rahhhhh! My first month of the hols were mostly spent in school, and I wouldn't say i enjoyed everything that I had to do the past month. But now, there's absolutely nothing to do, except homework, which I'm in no condition to do now since I'm still recovering from my cold. Had fever yesterday, Thank God I'm better now, but i still feel lousy -.- Anyway, can't wait for my trip to Italy! Just want some time away from this busy city and explore a foreign country for a change. S'pore's great, but real busy now. Everyone's going all around shopping for Christmas presents and decors. haha! Which reminds me, I haven't thought of what to buy for my frenz yet. Eeeps!! But remember, Christmas isn't just about receiving and giving presents. It's about the celebration of Jesus Christ's bday! The coming of Christ! He's the birthday boy! Yay! =D Hmmm, but I'll be missing out on lotsa church events when I'm away =( Like trumpet call and stuff....sigh wished I could go for it, but cant =( oh wells, there's always another year! Bahhhhh, i feel so lethagic. Shoots la, being sick isn't fun. Hate the flu, hate the itchy feeling in my throat, hate the medicine. -.- wahhhhhhh!!!!! I guess there are more things coming up, more excitement installed in the days to come. Somehow, I have a feeling something real big is gonna happen, like real exciting as well. I hope it's a good thing too. =) Alright, I better go rest or something, still need to fully recover. Dreading having to do homework........ oh gosh tuition later >.<>

2007-11-23T22:05:00.000-08:00

To finish a love's duet! Hi yes! I've just watched Enchanted a few days ago! It must be the BEST movie I've watched this year!!!!!! I like how they transit from animation to real life, and even those actors playing the roles of the animated characters are still so wacky in reality! hahahah! The chipmunk's gotta be the cutest thing! XD The tale's so DELIGHTFUL! Tell you, Peeps were cracking up every 5 mins! Never a dull moment during e movie! LOL! ENCHANTED ENCHANTED! YAY! Hmmmm, I strongly encourage all of ya to go watch ENCHANTED!!! YES! oh yeah! I'll be doing this publicity thing in church for my school's choir concert coming up *gulp* dont mess up! ahhhh! hmmm, maybe i'll publisize here! PLMGSS choir concert, together with 4 other schools. 30th Nov, Friday, 7.30pm-9.30pm, at PLMGSS concert Hall. Tickets are sold at $15 or $20! YAY i've done my part =D Alright enough from me for now! Toooodles! JoJo

2007-11-10T06:50:00.000-08:00

Today's pri sch prefects' camp was a HUUUGE success! XD Just wanna thank all the group leaders, game masters, presentors (yes you guys were awesome!), LOG team(!!), Camp Commandant and A Camp Commandant, all those invovled in the planning of e camp, Ms Gan and Melvin!! DEFINITELY GOTTA THANK GOD TOO!!!!!!!! He's the HEAD of the camp =D If I didn't have you all backing me up in e programme, the camp wouldn't have been such a blast!!!!! Very happy with the pri sch kids as well. They all so enthu!!!!! YAY! make our job easier. =) hahahahah! Take note: Pri sch kids LOOOVE point system! Give them as much points as you want! that's how you get their participation =) I find that they are very willing to take innitiative! Like when we ask for volunteers to get food for their groups, they immediately raise up their hands to volunteer!!! So cute sia!!! Today's camp was AWESOME!!!!!!!!! hahahaha! XD Learnt quite a lot about myself too. Like how i can become so "C" when it comes to planning programme!!!!! "C" meaning very very detailed and particular about details. oh my so scary!!! >.<>.< Yes!! That's all I got for now! Went super high after that! Was like jumping around at church after service! Mannnn, i think i embarrased myself haha!!! I really really wanna thank God for helping me through the camp!!!! Without Him, the programme wont run so smoothly. Without Him, all my planning peeps might not work together. But Thank God that through Him, we succeeded and really worked very well together, setting aside our differences and making this camp a fruitful and unforgettable experience for us and the primary school kids!! Thank you alll!! <333333333333> Lots of Love, JoJo

2007-11-08T08:13:00.000-08:00

hey all! Pardon me if you see this in one whole big paragraph. Blame it on my broken "enter key! haha! Today was super super fun! Had BBQ at Tiffany's house with the gang! You know what, i think we really bonded! XD and i can cook ok! Still never get stomach ache! hahah ah!!!!! We were amking so much noise lah! I think altogether got 11 of us! plus Tiff's relatives. wow wow wow! We just sat at the garden table, talk and sing songs! XD Gosh, today's BBQ was the besttt!!! Let's have another one guys!!!! <333333 style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Alright, it's the hols, but i've been going back to school these past 2 weeks. Thank God tmr's the LAST day i gotta go back for lessons! phew! My brain a bit situated already! >.<> So far, life has been, really funny. Like 1 min i can be so happy and so high, then the next go all the way down. Haiizzzz, very confusing lahhhh! >.<

2007-10-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

Today was super fun!!!!!!!!

Went to Suntec with Charmz and Tiff today! Went to pepper lunch (i cook not bad u noe!), bought some FBTs, went archading for a while, then went Toys R Us!

We went insane at Toys R Us!!!! XD At the soft toys section, Tiff saw this cute poodle dog in a bag. I was like, WOW SO CUTE!!!!!! Then Tiff was like, "Imagine we buy this and swing this around" I started cracking up! It was such a fantastical idea!!!!

Then she asked me if I was serious. Dead serious lah! Both of us kept laughing until we fell on the floor. Eh hahahahha. At Toys R Us, near the cashier some more! We bought it anyway! Tiff has the green one, I had purple!

Charmaine was super embarrassed of us, but she kept laughing anyway!

Tiffany wanted to buy a spongebob! We calculated. Altogether would be $46.80!!!! >.< (she wanted to buy a rubiks cube to "test her intelligence".

Everyone was like, looking at us lah! But who cares! we kept playing! Charmz and I wanted to get the life size pony! (almost $400!) Oh and we played with the stick ponies! XD

We were utterly... insane!

This is what happens when we're too stressed! haha!

Yep, so after that went to Auntie Anne's. Pretzles! XD Been a while since I ate. Yumz!!!

Today was just super funny lah! Helped me de-stress and temporarily forget my troubles. When i came back home, getting my work done was much easier too! (*coughs*cancelledmytuition *coughs*)

Tiff, Charmz, thanks for today!!!! Wouldn't have been this much fun without you guys!!!!! Love y'all!

Next time, should invite more ppl!!! Then can spread the insane-ness!

Oh ya! Saturday went to watch movie (Mr Woodcock) Hilarious!!!! =D Then went HMV!!! I think we were super noisy there also! haha! Everytime we picked up a CD, I would hum the tune of one of e songs or something. haha! XD Spider man 3 was shown on those TVs too!

As always, i freaked out when i saw the DVD/VCD covers of those horror movies ^^;;;;;

Sunday! Went to my elder cousin's bday party in the evening! Played pool and went KTV-ing! Super funny! My bro and I were making fun of the old songs! XD Then my other cousin and us were snooping around *coughs coughs coughs* cannot say cannot say. But overall, that night was just so fun!!!!!

So these 3 days, my life has been real interesting =) Hope there would be more of this! Good to have some high-ness in life ya noe, prevents cancer! ( as told by Tiffany, I'm not too sure about the reliability of that, let's give her the benefit of the doubt shall we?)

That's all for now! See ya!

JoJo

2007-09-23T03:55:00.000-07:00

You know, when one is bored, weird questions comes to your mind, right?

Well i have a question. Why do people think that using vulgarities is cool? What's so cool about it anyway? It just turns people off, that's what i think. Plus, does sprouting vulgarities show that you're tough?

I don't get why people act so differently around diff groups of people too. If this group is vulgar, they become vulgar. If another group is like, neutral, doesn't say any vulgarities, they do the same. It's like, trying to mask your true identity. So much for trying to "be yourself".

I think the most important thing is your morals. Seriously, don't try to be someone else when you know you can't, it's worse if you're trying to look bad and mean and ...whatever =/

LOL! Don't mind my serious tone up there! lol! I was just wondering. Ok! back to the light tone!

ok, maybe i have to type something that isn't too light. lol!

I wonder if it's true. You know, do guys tend to go after girls who are more "hard to get"? I mean, sure, i can't say that ALL guys are like that or ALL guys think the same way, cuz of their personalities, but really, i just wanna noe. Oh and if that's the case, why? Someone tell me! >.<

Hmmm, i wonder when we're going out.... it's dinner time! =) but we're still at home -.-

Oh! presentation tomorrow! Oh my! I just wanna get it over and done with. Our hostel model's real cool too! But ah well, i dont really wanna win lol. just go there, talk, and sit down. THE END! Then be a good girl and listen ATTENTIVELY! We're gonna be in business suits! haha!

I shall go persuade my family to go now. Hungry+bored=not happy JoJo. lol

You amaze me sometimes
Your contrast
in front and behind
It's quer
something out of the blue
Let me see
what you can do

See, told u i would write. =) lol

2007-09-21T07:07:00.000-07:00

EXAMS ARE OVERR!!!!!

Yeah ok it's a little late but haha! better late than never! =) We're all bogged down by a project now though. Sigh, so much for enjoying the free time after exams. Well, at least I didn't have to go to school for the past 2 days.... did i just say that? lol

Well, so far, surprises are just jumping out at me. lol! It's really funny actually. I never expect certain things to happen, but they do. HAHAHA!

Oh my gosh! I just found out my sister (10 yrs old) HAS A BLOG! OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH! And she didn't tell me!!!! bahhhhhhhhh! haha!

Oh Oh! DANCE WAS AWESOME! We had this dance workshop at church. This really cool guy from NZ came to teach us! He's a celeb too! XD So funnn!!!!!!!! He really has shown us how we can worship God through dance! happy happy! He'll be speaking on sat! TOMORROW! WOOO! XD

Wahhhh! Still have to go to school tomorrow! -.- I'm too lazy to go haha! but do i have a choice? well, nope. Gotta drag myself to school for a workshop. hmmm =/ can go out after that ^^

I'm so random! lol lol lol!

Oh my! today was super funny too! ( now why didn't i type that earlier)! We were making e structure for our hostel, then dunno what Vernissa or Tiff said, we kept laughing and laughing and laughing!( ouch, stomach pain >.<) We.were.stressed. crap+stress+dunno what to do for our project=HAVOC! lol

Hmmm, do i have a poem to write? hmmm not now, but i'll write soon! lol! Need to get inspiration first! too tired. haha! See ya!!!!

shhhs lol

2007-09-10T00:13:00.000-07:00

H-ey!

Yes I know I know, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE ON THE FIRST DAY OF YOUR EXAMS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!" Eh hahha I can explain?

Nah, I'm just de-stressing for a while! haha! Had Pure Lit and Elect Geog today. Gosh my hands are aching! Managed to finish the questions. Phew! 2 down 7 more papers to go (exc chinese listening and all the part 1, part 2 of e papers)!

9 MORE DAYS 9 MORE DAYS! CAN'T WAIT!

Hmm, tmr, E math, chinese list... woooahhhh >.<

lol i guess i don't have much to say, i'll leave u guys with a little something!

I probably don't know what i'm feeling
I'm probably jumping ahead of me
But I'm liking every bit of it
Although I know I said I wasn't ready
I wanna say "Your sweet talking ain't getting to me"
"Your sweetness is not shaking my perspective"
But I'm sorry to say
I'm in denial if I say that
But I won't let you know
I can't let you know yet
Until i hear what i wanna hear

2007-09-02T06:03:00.000-07:00

Had so much fun this morning!!!! XD

We had a captain's ball game for e sec 3 cell grps in our church. We were split ramdomly but it was super fun!!!!! Didn't know i could jump and catch the ball well! hahahhaa! Thanks to my sport shoes! ^^ Got spring!

I'm all sunburnt now hahaha!! OH and Charmz FINALLY got a tan! Well done girl! ABOUT TIME! hahahahha! =)

Hmmmm, got to know more of the sec 3s in my church. Hope we can have another round of interaction. So fun lahh! I want another one after EOYS! >.<

Friendster wasn't working for me this whole afternoon, even for now, it's still not working! >.<>

I couldn't even post a comment on people's profile and i couldnt even GO to their profile. Hope the prob clears up tmr! sheesh! waste my time!

RAHHHH! hmm? LOL sorry random again!

Ok! I shall stop here!!! I should head to bed soon, tmr i still got Chem in the morning, and choir in the afternoon. talk about hols. OH WELLS! haha! no biggie!

Blog another time!

JoJo

Your energy, it excites me
My head feels light, I don't know why
Guess it's time for fantasies
To crash down on me.
No time for endless dreaming
It's back to reality

I don't know why or what I am thinking,
But i let it not be a burden to me
At least, for now.

hmmmmm

2007-08-29T08:05:00.000-07:00

It's amazing isn't it.

(speaking from experience. Yours might be different)

What you prioritise a year ago may greatly differ from what you prioritise now. I've noticed something.

As young adolescents, it's that sense of love that you want to feel, the feeling of someone loving you that you ache for. Thus some will want to "settle down" with their partner(if they find one). I'm talking abt teens aged 13-14.

Usually, at this age, it is when you are the most vulnerable. You have not experienced enough to really understand what "going steady" or being "attached" mean. You might be trapped in your own world of confusion, thus hurting yourself and the people invovled. Proceeding too fast with the relationship with the immature thinking that everything is a fairytale will only crash down on you when the weight of reality settles in.

Then, when you reach sec 3, things really do change.

It's the sense of belonging that you want now. You want the assurance that you have strong friends that you can rely on. Besides that, the amount of responsibilities pushed to you is seriosuly heavy. On top of that, you have your studies to worry about, and when you have too many things to commit to, you really don't know what to do. In the end many people settle into a state of depression. Why?! It's because of all the commitments that they have! Relationships are no longer placed as no. 1 on the "priority list"

Not to mention, you tend to think more about the seriousness of a relationship. You begin to understand the meaning of waiting, you tend to evaluate the importance of having a boy/girlfriend. Again, it's friends that matter more to you than relationships. Relationships can wait.

Though I say all this, i can never deny the fact that people do get jealous when others get into a relationship, or when they get rejected, OR when they find out that the person they thought like her/him doesn't have any special feelings for the person at all. Yet, it's all these frustrations that contribute to the "waiting period".

Studies and various commitments are seriously choking up my life! That's probably why I don't bother so much about relationships as much as I did(I used to think about them all the time. sheesh). Even if I do like a guy, I won't let him know that soon, cuz I'm afraid that I can't commit to it. See, it's all commitments! THINK! at this age(15) can you even be committed to your partner!

Sure, i used to be that immature girl who thinks that love (the BGR kind) is all fantasy, that it's the best remedy for my aching heart, but i can't emphasize any more, it's those great friends who pull me through each and every obstacle.

I have faced setbacks, I have faced rejection. If you are reading this, I can empathise with you.

Pick yourself up. Being rejected by someone doesn't spell the end of the friendship with that person. It doesn't mean you cannot love again.

Let nature take its course. There's no point rushing into things and hurting yourself. It's utterly stupid.

When it's time, you'll know.

God bless!

2007-08-26T07:25:00.000-07:00

Heys!!!

Been a while since i blogged haha!

Exams are coming!!!!! AHHH! I have chi and eng paper 1 tmr, plus chinese oral! Gosh i tell you, they're trying to kill us! There's so little time to do anything bleagh!

And yes, Joyce helped me do the blogskin! THANKS GAL! but i don't love her la! =.= she's so ego! hahahaha.

Hmmm, wow i'm so bored! Today, I watched rush hour 3 with my family. Gosh so funny!!!!!! Chris Tucker was such a great joker! It made my day! so what if i watch a movie before my exam? lol! it's called "chilling out". I still studied ok >.< style="COLOR: rgb(255,102,102); FONT-STYLE: italic">I'm not gonna be a bug that clings onto you, I never was. You've gotten rid of me already. Aren't you happy? Go chase your deary, I'm sure she'll be happy, although she has a buffet spread right in front of her face. Don't get me wrong, I'm just being sarcastic.

It's your choice. It's your loss. Not mine.

JoJo

AFTER A MILLION YEARS, I CHANGED BLOGSKIN

2007-08-18T00:28:00.000-07:00

HELLO.
JOYCE IS A GREAT SOURCE OF HELP TO ME.
SHE HELPED ME CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN AFTER SO LONG!
LOVE HER LOTS

2007-07-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

HEYS!

Yep I know, been a while since i came here! haha!

Lit fest was on sat! Wheee!! Pretty fun! Got to see some really cool book trailers. Other than that, 4 of us were like, slacking at the dance studio XD

Oh man! haha! Funny thing happened on sat! Gosh what if the whole lvl knows by tomorrow! Oh my Oh my! Oh well! Doesn't matter! XD

Too bad i couldn't watch the full debate on TKAM. I'm sure our sch did well!! So sad! Didn't hear Charmaine debate! OH man OH man! LOL

Feeling rather bored now. Last week was all tests tests tests! Tomorrow there's e geog test too!! And SS assignment! HELP HELP!

I dunno if i wanna see you again or it's out of pure curiosity! LOL! I'll go with the 2nd one. =) I always have a nose for new things, new people. Wait, that didn't sound quite rite! hahahaha!

Wheee~
Whee~
Bleagh! haha maybe i should sleep soon! I am so random!

Alrighty! shall post another time!!!!!

JoJo

2007-07-04T05:51:00.000-07:00

A collision of emotions

I seek to find the joy

A dismay i cannot find

A smile you see never authentic

In distress I cry

In weakness I sigh

Rid of all these i must

But no, it would never leave

I've been fooled once too many

Not just by others, but myself

Empty

Fill me up

I hate emptiness

I just hate emptiness

Fill me up with joy

Fill me up with tender

Fill me up...with love

I know not to harbour

Feelings such as these

I pray it'll go away

This sadness within me

go away... this is not a real me.

Go away...I want me back

Help me Lord, To find me

decisions

2007-07-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

Tsk Tsk, decisions decisions.
I've been chasing after you for so long.
You told me that u found another, then later the story changes.
You read me like a book, Your pages are smudged, I cannot see.
Then a special friend comes along
The one I've met a while ago.
I realise what a great person he is, i blame my blindness all this time.
Am I changing my target? Am I responding to the love he had always had for me?
Sometimes i wonder why I've missed him and went for others,
Hurting myself even more
But when i see him again my heart it flutters
Like the butterflies when a flower or two they see.
Decisions Decisions I must make
Between the two, i must choose.
Tsk Tsk what a decision to make

JoJo

2007-06-03T00:01:00.000-07:00

heys!! I'm back! I didn't go for mega camp... which is such a pity =( i was sick on that day... and still am... a little... oh well! Plus point is... i get to wake up late!! =D is that even something to be happy about? =/ lol

Hmmm, anyway, life's been going on pretty okish...had fun on fri!! Met my friend from overseas!!! Wheee! she's so NICE! so cute too! lol lol lol! yeah besides that we ate at sakae sushi! Gosh should see how JA ate!!! Super funny!! She kept stuffing herself....i gave up after less than 10 plates! Tog we ate ard 22++ plates of sushi... so you know who ate the most!! Never take me to a sushi buffet!! hahaha XD no actually, i dont mind, just that u have to eat more to make up for my part =D

Kept laughing there! i kept giving her the diao look. wahahahah! she eat sushi until can hit her head on the glass backing! BEST. my other friend was there too... i think we scared that poor fella! HAHAHAHAH

wahhhh!! i miss seeing you online!! wanna talk to yoouuuuu =(

oh oh! rgs symposium coming up!!! hope it'll be fun! =D

totally random.... heee

eeeerrrmmmm pls pls tagg! my tag board is deader than ever!!!! sobs! that's all i gotta say! see ya all next time!!!

JoJo

2007-05-25T20:31:00.000-07:00

Heys!! Wow i havent blogged for.... ages!!! WAHAHAHAH been busy with camps and stuff. I had a sec 3 camp which was AWESOME, sec 1 "I" discover camp(which the sec 3, meaning us, organised) which was also AWESOME... and i got one more leadership camp coming up! =) I loove adventures!

Anyway, my term 2 results are... pretty bad.... i failed Bio!!! =( but luckily my term 1 marks pulled me up... if not ... yeah, u noe what will happen. =/ gotta buck up! >.<

Hmmm... it's amazing how my life has changed. 1 min i thought i'll be depressed over something... then the next i'm happy and ... peachy! It all in the mind i guess.. or rather heart. Yeah... heart. Someone special always makes my day... just dont want it to end...

Wow... i just remembered... HOLS ARE HERE!! LOL! but i'm really really busy! Like i got choir twice every week cept for the 3rd week, on top of that i have dance rehearsals for my church's 75th anniversary and SOW opening! Wow busy busy!!! I'll be amazed if i survive through the whole thing... oh and i got LOTS of homework!! BAHHH! Is this even called a holiday? lol. something to think about.

... I WANNA GO OUT WITH YOU!! >.< hahahaha random! =P

Anyways, i better be going... i wanna watch some videos! hahahah! *continues eathing ruffles* SEE YA!

JoJo

2007-04-30T07:16:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!!! I am so gonna fail my chinese oral! Yeah it's not a real exam but it's part of my CA marks! I read so badly!!! Stumbled... bleagh! I just cant read properly these days! >.< Sigh

I've been busy these few days, so real sorry for not updating my blog. Well many things happened... esp yesterday when i snapped at someone, though i'm not particularly affected... OK I AM! Grrrr! -.-

Sigh, being a teenager is soooo difficult sometimes! Don't you wish u could grow up faster!!! hmmm, on second thought... maybe grow younger. Whichever!

Anyway, not much to blog about. Common tests coming =X need to chiong!!!!!!

OK see u all!! Bye!

2007-04-17T05:20:00.000-07:00

Hey all! I finally got my photos up! Ermm... I'm not being vain or anything...but yeah i was bored!!! SO i just took pics of myself!!! Not self absorbed! Get that in your head! >.<
After sports day and camp meeting!!! Look at the pretty red ribbon! *points* >.<
oO I look sad!!!!

My family!!! We were at Hong Kong! This photo's old man! Taken last year hahaha!

Anyway, today was such a bad bad day for me!!! I lost my ezlink card can!!! AHHH! Sobs Sobs cry cry!!! Oh well...

Argh! Just feeling really moody... or like my friends like to say, "qi gea" -.- It's really weird... these kinda things always happen when u least expect... and they hit you hard! Grrrrr! Oh well....

Anyway, had chinese test today... you know what!! There wasn't tian xie han zi!!! And i woke up at 4 ++ to memorize the characters!!! AHHH! Although it did help... hmmmm... sleep deprived!

Ok, shall end of here!! See y all soon! Thinking of having my own diary... so no more posting of my personal stuff here!! HWAHAHAHAHA!

2007-04-12T04:52:00.000-07:00

heys! Yeah i know! WOW i'm back after one day? lol! Hmmm, i took some photos.... considering if i should post it up... lalala

Oh! Guess it's decided! Cant find the wire!!!! argh!!! Maybe next time!

Haha! Anyways, today was sports day!!!! XD It was pretty ok... cuz i was just stoning at the competitors' stand.... almost dozing off... bahhs. I wanted to run! But i was a reserve -.-

But Kudos to the sports comm! They did a great job!! YAY YAY!

lalala, ok i'm feeling high for no reason again!! Ohhhh tomorrow there's choir camp!!! haha! Ohhh must remind my friend to pack her bag, if not she forget! wahahahhaa

Ohhh almost 8! I wonder what time is parental guidance.... *checks phone*

Ok, it's late. not really but yea...i wanna sleep so goodnight!

JoJo

2007-04-11T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hey all! Yup back! YAY!

Sport's Day's tomorrow! Woooo! I'm so glad i found my number tag... squashed in my little drawer -.- But then i squashed it into my wallet too so yeah, no harm hahaha!!

This week has been... rather uneventful ...YET! Choir camp this Fri to Sat =) Yippee! Sure it'll be fun!

Hmmm, Just watched the dance floor! I loved the 1st team that performed today! They just melted my heart! Seriously they're awesome! Their controlled yet flowing movements just captivates and inspires me! Wooo Ballroom dancing is so cool!!!!! hahaha! Though i don't dance ballroom, i'm inspired to learn! Wheee! OH but Jazz and hip hop are wonderful dances as well!

If it hurts, it isn't love. Trust me... cuz i wanna trust you again... I'll be right here for you, though u're far away from me. =)

Lol, I'm so random!!!!

Hey! I just realised that i should include some photos in my blog!!! >.< but then again, I don't really have photos of myself... nice ones at least! hahaha. Don't really take photos! wahahahaha!!!

Anyway, for those who are going through dark and turbulent times in your lives right now, i recommend this song to you: Keep holding on (Avril Lavigne)

Keep holding on,
cuz you know you're gonna make it through.
Just stay stong,
cuz you know i'm here for you =)

Look at a brand new perspective of your life. Though u may feel down right terrible and negative, think of what u've done, think of the people who are still supporting you. Don't give up. Don't give in. Be strong, Trust in the LORD! =)

You know, sometimes u don't know why certain things happen in your life. You just feel that it's so unfair!! Why!! Why is it happening to me?!!! What have I done to deserve this hurt!!! But you know what, You can never experience the true joy of life unless you go right to the bottom of the ocean and taste the bitterness of life. Look inside you, don't you have your family, friends and your loved ones there? What about the wonderful thing of having air to breathe, food to eat, water to drink, clothes to wear... the basic of life, is the true essence of happiness. Friends, family... they're all there for you. In times of trouble, in times of despair.

Yep, hope you all cheer up!!!!! Smile!! It's ok to shed some tears, once u're done, u'll feel much better!!!!! YAY!

Alrighty, next time i blog, i promise to put in pictures and other updates!!! For now....

STAY HAPPY!!! =)

<3333 JoJo

2007-04-07T08:13:00.000-07:00

Hey all! Yep! Back to blog! Today had dance performance in church! Was super fun! Wheeee! XD
The service was really good too! Really touched me and I pray that many ppl turned to God! =)))

Hmmm, my life... has been like, on a roller coaster ride. Seriously, everything is so unexpected! One min i thought something wonderful would happen, next min i find myself getting depressed over the same thing that made me happy. After that something else jumps in and gets me all happy.... woo wheee! Life is so unpredictable! Yeah but I'll leave it all to God's almighty hands!!!! =D

wow! Tests are coming up!! >.< I have E math test on tues and Lit unseen poetry test on fri!!!! WAHHHHH!! ok relax relax! i'll be fine! breatheeeeee! wahahha

Ohhh getting late and i havent bathed yet! oh yay my siblings and mommy are back!!!

OK shall blog another time!! Byebye! Good night!

2007-04-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

I'm hurt. Seriously. Hurt.

What does he take me as? Some girl he can fall for, and then ditch?
What am I to him? A toy, the backup in case another relationship doesnt work out?
Does he like another person or does another person like him?
Argh!!! I'm just brimming with questions... boiling.....
Nothing will make me feel angrier than the feeling of betrayer
Time for me to get a life!
ARGH!!!!!!!

STOP TORTURING ME! IT'S NOT FUN!

2007-03-28T06:10:00.000-07:00

Heys!!!! Yeah I'm back to blog! X)

Wow, today was so funny! I went to my friend's pri school for CIP (a.k.a tutoring pri school kids) and it was super fun! We kept making noise and laughing!!!! hahhaha! The 2 pri school girls kept saying that the boy i'm tutoring ____ me? hahahaha! I almost died laughing! i laughed so hard i had to go out to get a drink of water!!!!! XD

Hmmm, My week has been quite pleasant, but something cooked up and i got really sad about it. Yeah, but i hope i'll solve this thing. I'm sure it'll be ok =) smile!

Tomorrow, i will be very very very very very very very BUSY!

English Test
Peer tutoring for E math
Choir grp rehearsal
Choir
Dance

Choir and dance being more than 2 hours and right after the other oO;;;;

OUCHHHHHHH! I'm gonna be so tired tomorrow! Gotta make sure i sleep early today.

I really don't like it when people misjudge us! I mean, you can't just assume that it is that way and be narrow minded about the situation. I feel that people should gather more proof and not only rely on what they see or hear but get the inside story. People should be more open! This is the modern society! Not the 15th century! I really hope those people who judge teenagers for what they see and hear would change their perspective and assess the situation before making any decision. Now, this is not because of a recent event, but a generalization. So i hope u don't go sue me or something... I'm innocent!!!!!! >.<

Yeah, ok, I think I wasted quite a lot of time on the computer. Time to do my homework and call up my friends abt the rehearsal tomo!!! Shall blog soon!! WAIT FOR ME!

JoJo-always in <3 with you!

2007-03-24T08:38:00.000-07:00

Wow... totally pooped out here!!! lol!!!

Today was fun though! we had sec 4 06' reunion. We did a dance and song for the seniors but i think the sec 4s 07' did a really good job! The skit was so funny! wahahhaa XD

Ohhhh it's gonna rain... gosh it's almost 12 midnight!!! I gotta go for cell tomo.. and i'm still not sleeping? *blinks*

Hmmm, wow, i can't believe fantasy is actually playing right before my eyes in my life. It's so... surreal! I'm glad it turned out like that... i really want it to continue =))) lol betcha don't know what i'm talking abt! I won't tell!! WHEEEEEE!

Ok, this post is so random but i just feel like blogging. Argh! I'm gonna die from doing my chinese homework! i have 3 pieces of work to do that is due on mon and that's only for chinese! I still have A and E math homework that's due on tues!! And tomorrow i'm super super busy! WAHHHH stresssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssSSSSSSSSSssssssssssssssss! Good thing i finished my gong han... if not surely die! XP

Ok, i seriously think i should hit the sack... Ohhh but i wanna watch more Busted videos! That band rocks!! Too bad they split! Sigh... not fair >.< nvm, at least there are still videos! YAY!

Wish I can see you again...lol oops i shall stop here! Wheeee!

Ok... super random post, don't mind me i'm just feeling really hyper although i'm really tired...doesn't make sense but... who cares! yay!

Hmmm, shall attempt to sleep... after watching more busted vids!!! Ok, will update my blog soon i hope, if my busy scedule permits me! Always remember that dreams do come true, like what happened to me. Treasure it, seize that opportunity and don't lose or disregard something very precious to you! Love you all!

JoJo-feeling <3 peachy! XD

2007-03-15T07:02:00.000-07:00

Heys, yep i'm blogging again. Wow... it's a great improvement. Last time I rarely blog but now, i just so many stuff to blog about... Wooo! Just came back from an eventful sleepover... So tired now hahaha but i'm still going strong!

Today was so fun! Met up with a good friend and went to the library. I kept asking my friend tons of maths questions and my friend's just like answering all of them! I'm like... Wooooo smart! I guess we made a lot of noise haha! The librarian kept asking us to hush... oops... but i was whispering come on! Don't tell me the librarian has super hearing or something.. please!

We were doing all sort of stuff, vandalising each other's hands, scribbling on my maths homework( art by me haha) and just ...talking... A LOT! (whispering though) Wheeee XD

But now, I'm really worried for my friend, acting really emo now. Sigh, I wanna call but my friend won't answer...switched off the phone. So worried...hope everything's ok...

Be strong! Be happy! Don't think about it so much! You can always confide in me and i would be really glad to help you out!!! A hug may come along with it hahahah! What are friends for? =) SMILE!

Hmmm... Ahhhhhhhh! Hol homework!! Not done with all of them, just Add maths, E Maths and english... still got chinese and newspaper review!!!! Wahhhhhh! ok, relax relax! phew!

OH yeah, yesterday, I saw these really cute japanese guys at the arcade! Ok, they may be young and ok, they may be shorter than me BUT they were soooooooo adorable! My bestie and I stalked them all over the place wahahahah! We wanted to take their photo but they kept hiding from us! And they were with 2 girls who kept pushing them away whenever we were in close range! We just want their pics ok!!!! Geeezzz

I realise my post is in a random order... I'm just spilling out everything that has happened wahahahahha! ok, must be neater next time!

Wheee! Tomo there's mini SYF! WAHHHH haven't really memorized Tantum Ergo.. dead!!! XP

ok, I'll just sign off here. Maybe if I keep calling the phone will just switch on by itself or something!! Shall try that hahahahha!

See ya all!!

JoJo-stay happy! =) give me a BIG smile!

2007-03-13T05:47:00.000-07:00

It's so frustrating!!!!!! Clinggy guys! Argh! I already said i dont wanna be with him... yet he continues! GRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh, it's just really stressful for me now. My heart's in a mess, my head's in a whirl....and i'm just so ARGGHHHHH!!!! Thank God for friends! I love u guys! Muacks muacks muacks! LOVE U ALL!

haha i sound so weird lol lol! Just really stressed out now. sighhhhh

Anyways, today nothing much happened. Just went to NDC and got my braces tightened! Ouch! Oh and the best thing is.. i have to wear rubber bands!!!! At first my eyeballs almost popped out... but hey it's kinda fun! Can play with it, makes a nice sound hahahaha!

I guess in life, some things are just meant to be. It's better to let go of something if it hurts u too much, but move on. God does miraculous things! If you learn to let go of something that stabbed you so many times, u get something better for learning your lesson. This experience really opened my eyes to how some people are... at the same time, i find others that truly care for my well-being and wants me to be happy. Treasure what you have and love your friends, cuz they love you too =)

OK, I shall not say so much, my head still hurts hahaha! Wow, I typed so much up there! I'm motivated lol! ok nvm, see ya all next time!! byebye!

<3 JoJo

AHHHHHH!!!

2007-03-09T06:47:00.000-08:00

Wow! It has been a while ever since i blogged! lol

Sigh! The last few weeks are like, havoc! I've been crying and crying almost every night the other time... and now, I made someone so special to me cry every night! What's wrong with me! What's wrong with this... this... ARGH! Sometimes i really wonder why I'm so stupid! Although he has scolded me and all the other times, why am I being so cold to him now even though he tried to change... I mean i didn't really see the change but I know that he was trying his best. Oh well, cooling off for 2 weeks, hopefully I'll know what I want next time, I'll just leave it all to God =)

March holidays just started! YAY! I hope i can find the time to go out with my friends! Yay! Oh... still need to study! grrrrrr

We're given so much homework! How are we supposed to finish everything in one week?! Like hello!! We need a break! AHHHH! Help Help! I cant memorize Tantum Ergo!!!! AHHHHHHHH gonna die! GONNA DIE!

lol ok, this post is like, all about my rantings. It's pretty much redundant unless u know what I'm talking about. Haha

Life is just so confusing at times. Sometimes, u don't really know why things are going this way, and you just wanna give up everything and surrender! That's how i felt...I thought that if something happened to me, it'll stop me from experiencing all these confusion...but that's as good as giving up. It's so hard being a teenager now... it's so hard being just 15 with 1 guy trying to "control" your life....really hard.... Thing is, he is a nice guy but... just too obsessive... i guess no one will truly know how i feel right now unless they've gone through the same thing as me. Guilt, misery, torn between 2 sides, stranded...lost

oh well, guess i'll end off here. Getting pretty late and i gotta sleep, Choir tomorrow! Gotta wake up early and memorize scores! woohoo! I'll blog more next time! See ya all!

<33 JoJo

2007-01-20T05:27:00.000-08:00

wooooooooooooooooo this blog is like... outdated!! >.< Grrr, been busy with school, CCA, homework... the list goes on!

WOW it's the new year already! Almost 1 month is gonna pass! Phew, time does fly by so quickly! Hmm, I'm not one to keep new year resolution but if i do have one, I guess be more positive, think on my feet and work hard to achieve great results. =)

There few days I've been facing many challenges. Emotional stresses, pressure... those sort of stuff. I guess now I'm still pretty much indecisive and I'm always stuck in between what 1 person says and what another says. My head's like... spinning!! How do u even expect a poor girl like me to take all the pressure!!! I'm still young!!! Yes I am!!!

Sigh, note to self: Start being brave and do what I have to do! >.<

Ok, I guess that's all, I'm just typing out random stuff to fill up my post...

Oh yeah, Sec 1 orientation was a blast!!! It was fun and all the prefects bounded!! I got to know some really cool sec 1s too! yay! =)

Alright, I'm soooo weird!

Anyway, I'll end here... I'll really end here you know... don't go looking cause I'm gonna end... 1..2..3..

JoJo-Told ya!

2006-12-29T19:16:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! WHEEEEEEEEE!

Yeah i know it's a little late but HEY! Remember there are 12 days of Christmas? Yeah today's the... 6th day of Christmas! Haha!!

The new year is coming!! How fast time flies!! It's as if holidays just began yesterday and now, school's reopening soon. This year has been a year of turbulence, joy, laughter, tears, frustration, love.... friendships! I've had my ups and downs but i'm really happy becuase all these experiences strengthened me emotionally and mentally. Yeah, you can't have good things all the time, but some "bad" things may just help ya out in your life =)

Oh you know yesterday, I had stomach flu!!! >.< It started reacting at the beginning of my maths tuition T.T I feel bad cuz my math teacher had to leave when she just came for like... 2 mins or something.bleagh! Hate getting sick!

These few days have been hectic for me! After I came back from Malaysia on tues I had to go to school the next day for prefect's camp. it lasted for 2 days but Thank God we didnt have to stay over or I'll be pooped! Then yesterday, I had board meeting... then the stomach flu -.-

Oh errr sorry for being so random!! I'm kinda just typing out whatever is on my mind, don't wanna think so much wahahha! yes I'm weird =))

Alright, that's all for now! See Ant my blog is not DEAD anymore! Thanks for posting those random tags though! haha!

Alright, I gotta go do... something... yeah... so have a blessed nwe year ahead and God Bless!!

JoJo

ARGH

2006-12-03T21:23:00.000-08:00

Sorry i just have to rent a little...

I feel so... argh!! yes, argh! I think i can't even cheer up my friend... and i've never felt this... this... frustrated!! It's like whatever i say is wrong, whatever i do is wrong and it isn't helping him at all!!!!!!!!!!!! What am i doing!!!! Yeah sure, i bet someone else can... pfft.

Sigh, I don't even know anymore!!!!! It's so confusing. One time he's down, the next fine... sigh

I'm sorry I'm doing this... I just wanna help, but i dont know how. I feel bad... I feel as though i did something wrong. I should have just butt out of other people's affairs unless they want to confide in me. Yeah, that's right. Only if they want to confide in me. I feel so stupid!HA HA!

I have to be careful with what I say here... it's a blog after all...

I ..................................................... but i....................................... and i............................ ARGH!

Ok, it's simply nonsensical stuff so don't bother trying to decipher it.

When will he ever go back to that hilarious, weird, funny self?

P.s. highlight if you wanna read, if not don't.

JOJO-frustrated with myself, not anyone else really.

Love hurts!!! So sad=(

2006-12-03T01:00:00.000-08:00

Hey's everyone! I'm back! Gosh last week was a busy week for me, but it was a lot of fun! Went out with my frenz on mon, tues and fri!!! I watched Happy Feet twice! XD Watched once with my frenz and then watched it another time with my family!!! It's really that goood! WATCH HAPPY FEET AND START SINGING AND DANCING! WOO!

Anyways, there's nothing much to blog about. Hmmms, today's turning out fine... cept i'm not doing anything in particular... I just read my book, slept for a while, talked on the phone, in Youtube now and well... blogging....

Wow my life is sooooo exciting! >.<

Hey i've been thinking of something lately... well cause it happened to my friend...

Love hurts doesnt it... One minute u think u're the luckiest person on Earth to be with the one you care and love for... but then you get rejected! It's so sad... I mean, you get rejected for doing nothing at all! That's so sad. Sigh, I guess that's what love can do. It can be tragic, it can be joy. Love can tear apart friendships, love can amount to hate.

But don't let this downfall eat into you till you lose yourself in depression. There are all kinds of love, and it isn't the end of the world if one relationship doesn't work out. Even if it doesn't, we can still have love in friendships. Never give up on the love that you have for your friends, never let one single thing destroy you and divide you from the people who truly care for you. Love.... makes you cry, smile, sigh, dream and believe. So many emotions can be stirred up because of love. However, Love God, Love your friends and family.

Therefore, I urge you my friend, accept the reality, though tough, and move on. You still have a chance and it may be for the better. Hold still to your trust and smile again because a smile not only brightens up another person's day, it also brightens yours.

So here's a big smile for you! =D

Love,
Jojo

P.s. Hmmms, seems i got much to type about lol! >.< I'm so weird sometimes

Mega Camp

2006-11-17T21:23:00.000-08:00

Hey all I'm back from the best camp ever!!! Yep, I just came back from Mega camp and i miss it already!!! It was so fun fun fun! Not only that, i got to learn more abt myself and how to lead others etc etc (note: it's a leadership camp) TAGS rock!!! woohoo!!

I did absailing!!! It was fun! I had to like, walk down this verticle wall.... but due to my "outgoing-ness" I decided to JUMP! XD ... but ended up bouncing off and on the wall >.<>

We went jungle trekking too! That was when I relised that I can be tough when the need arises... I really learnt a lot abt myself and am satisfied :)

The Facilitators were awesome! Woohoo! ours rock!!! YAY!

Hey Dominic You're so fine, You're so fine you break my spine Hey Dominic, Hey Hey, Hey Dominic! WOOO! (TAGS CHEER!)

Hmmm, Overall i benefitted quite a bit from the camp and i have no regrets of going to Kota Tinggi for the camp! I'm sorta immuned to bugs now HAHAHAHAH

Of course I'm glad to be back in S'pore.... but then u noe, it's different. Over there ur life is so carefree... here it's so hectic!!! Kampong and civilisation... big contrast.

I wanna say a big hello to all my friends!! Thanks for tagging while I was away!! (although I havent checked it yet haha)

Hmmm... i guess that's all from me now! Keep smiling and always stay the way u r!!! Obey God and Trust in him always!! Muacks to all of YA!! esp *B-coughs* =D

Jojo- I'm more than you think : )

Ben's Reply

2006-11-09T08:00:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone i just edited my dear's blog for her as she had a difficulty with the blog so everyone plz enjoy. And for my dear : I LOVE U !

boored... and i love goong!

2006-10-22T03:34:00.000-07:00

Hey all! I'm back... and super bored... there's like nothing to do...lol

Anyways, Goong rocks!!! I'm sure lots of ppl know what Goong is right? It's a korean drama and for the benefit of those who don't know the show, it's about the royal family in Korea and all the thing of a gig. It's really fun!!! Appealing to teens as well!! If you haven't watched it... GET OUT FROM UNDER THAT ROCK! Time to inject some goong in ya!! Wahahahaha!

Chea-gyueng and Shin rocks!! Woohoo! They really do suit one another! Yay! *shifts eyes* I'm starting to sound like how i sounded when i was 10... haha! Oh well, the inner child is still living in me!

Gosh I'm so bored! There's seriously nothing else better to do... pooey!

Oh oh! We're gonna have a class B.B.Q on Fri at Tiff's house!! Hope I can sleep over on thurs... i asked my parents and they kinda said no... gahhhh, not fair! I just wanna spend time with my good pals since this is the last year all of us will be together in the same class... it's rather saddening, come to think of it. Wahhh!

Oh well nothing else to blog about... let's see, i have a goong CD next to me but it has chinese subtitles... should i watch it? Hmmm, what the hey i will! :)

Alrighty, see u guyz soon and happy hols in advance! Always stay cheerful because there's always a time for happiness :)))))

Jojo
(My computer's making a weird sound! ahhhhh)

Exams are over!!!

2006-10-08T01:54:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Yes I am back!!! Great to be back!!! WooHoo exams are over and there's nothing else to do... haha!!

Initially, my internet was not working... so i was really really really bored. So today, with my eyes half closed, i browsed through my comp and came across "intel ProSet Wireless" and poof! I managed to get my internet started!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! happy happy happy!!

Anyway, to all those who are mugging right now, ALL THE BEST! remember, you can do all things through Christ who strenghtens you"-Phil4:13 ^^

Yesterday i went for baptism ^^ IMMERSION YAY! there were 2 others who were getting baptised too so it was quick but i felt great! To be saved by the Lord not only ensures a new life for you, but a new beginning with the Jesus Christ himself. Believe in him and you will be saved. YAY!

Hmmms, i'm in trouble for something and i hope it'll be settled soon... sigh... but i noe with God's help, it'll be possible.

Hmm, guess i dont have much to type huh? well hope everything goes well for everyone! God bless! Remember not to rely on urself for strenght, but on God.

GOD BLESS YA'LL!!!

Jojo

2006-09-20T07:59:00.000-07:00

Lonely, dreadful.
fearful anxious
feelings, mixed up
a light, i cannot see
Worrying, hoping
praying, listening
a frown plastered
emotions stirred
friendship...torn?
thoughts racing
exams coming
stuck in a corner
desire to get out
Pray and pray
nothing else to do
lethargic, stressed
as if no one else shares
foolish, i find
myself to be
GET OUT i say
GET OUT OF THIS MISERY
Stregth, hope
i wish to find
comfort, consoladation
where can it be...
Dear Lord Help
Help I cry...

I cry
Holy Holy Holy God
How awesome is your name...

stressed out... pressured

2006-09-08T07:53:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, i'm back with another update. Well things have not been going well for me these few days. I cried my eyes out for 2 whole nights! I didnt have enough sleep the past 2 nights cuz i was reflecting and thinking of the stuff that got me so upset... and sometimes scared. It has just been so sudden, that being a young teenager as myself, it took time for me to fully comprehend what was going on. I discovered my folly, wrongdoings and lots of stuff that caused me to feel shakened. Life has never been this hard on me....

Now, no tears are streaming down my cheeks, but my heart still aches whenever i think of it. Things happened so fast.... i didnt even have time to catch my breath, to say a decent goodbye before i leave someone for a while...but i understand that this is all for my own good, and also for the good of the other party. I thank God for helping me through this and providing the help that I longed seeked.

My life is almost back to normal, I started my PROPER revision(and i hope it isnt too late!). I revised 3 chapts of history today! Yays! I shall continue to press on and study harder... EXAMS ARE IN 2 WEEKS! ACK!

Well, i guess there isnt much to say. I don't think I'll be updating too much... need to concentrate. Will update ASAP, maybe after the exams. Good luck and keep positive!! Love ya'll!

Until we meet again... memories forever etched into my mind...

Jojo

Baby solomon.

2006-09-03T03:05:00.000-07:00

YAY! I figured out how to get my colours back!!!!! I just had to hit the compose button... lol!! I'm weird XD

Anyway, yesterday was fun! In the morning my team and I (PlAnimators) went to Singapore Poly to attend this animation story boarding workshop. Quite fun and benefitting. We watched so many animations!!! X) FUN!

After that, I went ice skating with my sibs and couz. Baby solomon is so cuuuute! I had a fun time skating with my couz and sibs, even though my 2 other cousins who were around the same age were at home mugging. How dilligent. XD (I was the eldest there! haha) We skated for like, close to 3 1/2 hours!!! HAHAHAHAH :D madness!

Later on at around 8, we went to my aunt's house and ate nasi lemak, durian and Logan! Yummy! I played with Baby Solomon and found out that I could be his baby-sitter!! HE LIKES ME! He's so cute!! He just won't let me go, cuz everytime i try to leave he goes to find me and pulls me back!! hahahaha! He dragged me all over the place and I kinda lost count on the number of times I went up and down the stairs! He even wanted me to carry him around most of the time! LOL. I love u baby! muacks!!

We left the house at around 11.30.... boy was i tired! Solomon looked so sad when I was in the car.... awwwww, i miss him too!! *cries* However, my aunt said that she would "hire" me to babysit Solomon if the need arises!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

I guess I'm sorta motherly in that sense. I love kids, esp toddlers and kids from 1-3. They're just so cute!!! Mannn, i feel like a mother... and i'm only 14! Guess the motherly side of me is coming out... lol

*munches potato chips* hmmmm, i'm high!!!!!! XD WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE hahahahaha *everyone stares*

I guess I'll stop soon, there isnt much for me to type... cept that I havent exactly started studying... LOL! What's wrong with me!!! It's easy to say that I'll work hard, but so difficult to get myself off the chair and into the study room... oh well, that's me! Live with it! X)))))

Alrighty, that's all from me. Remember to tag my board!!! Revive it! It looks a little dead!!! Live!!! LIIIIIVVVVVEEEEEEE!

Ja Ne,
Jojo-the weird one.

post post

2006-09-01T08:19:00.000-07:00

Hey all u peeps!! How's it going! Today's teachers' day! No school!! XD Happy teachers' day to all those wonderful teachers out there!! A big shout out to u all! Thanks a bunch for ur guidance! We love u!!!!

Sorry, I'm like.. high today.... that's why. LOL! YAY FOR BEING HIGH

Today, i had chinese tuition at 8.30am in the morning. Kinda died... lol!!! I slept quite late yesterday and woke upat 815 or so... lol!!!! After tuition I had to go to Danya's house for a project, which ended at 230 or so, it was fast and quick. horrays!!

Went home, talked on the phone and then slept the whole afternoon till 6.45!!!! >.<
Guess what, my tuition was like, at 7.30pm! AHHHH and i didnt even finish my homework! Imagine the stress!!! Total madness!! hahahahaha X)

Well, now that i'm kinda free, sitted snugly on my chair, i think today was pretty slacky for me... must try to get myself to study soon lol!!!! Have to work super hard this Sept hols. GO GO GO!!

that's all from me now, oh and Ant, sorry abt the convo.... i noe u felt uncomfortable.... really sorry....

Jojo

hahahahs

2006-08-30T00:22:00.000-07:00

Oh mann! I'm having fun in the computer lab!!! Haha! Shi Ying and I are like, disturbing Juan An now!!! lol! Everyone noes that Mr* _ _ _ _* likes her!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA She's gonna cry.... we are so so so mean! It's so fun to bully her!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

Anyway, today i got back my results. I improved!! Yay! However, the 2 Cs pulled me down... but no matter, i will continue to maintain my good results and perservere on in my other subjects. Trust in God and everything will turn out the way God wants it to be!!!! We can do it! YAY

Alright, the teacher says that we're not supposed to be blogging.... hahahahaha! Ironiaclly i'm blogging abt.... the person... lols

My bro's coming back from camp today... lols! 2 days of peace has flown by so fast.... oh well, welcome back bro!

Jojo

another post....

2006-08-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

Sigh....these few weeks were so emotionally stressful for my class and myself. I shan't go into details so as to avoid hurting people. However, i can say that some are giving up on things easily... is it really becuz of stress from school... or something else?

Personally, i think that we should never give up... that's just me. Sure, there are certain things that are challanging and difficult in life, but leaving it hanging there after starting is just like breaking a fine thread into 2. Life is a race, so why stop running when the finish line is just a few metres away?

To all those who feel like giving up on something, i believe u have a prefect reason to do so, but whatever it is, i give my best regards to u. Do what u must and do it well.

Alright, on to other stuff....

For term 3, I surprisingly did better overall, though my chinese suck... i only got a C5 for chinese! Can u believe it!! Gosh am I gonna die! my chi tuition teacher would be really sad and my parents will be seriously shocked! However i promise to work harder to attain a B3 for chi and to maintain my good results for the other subjects.With perseverance and trust in God, i know i can do it. to all those in my situation, all the best! Jia You! Add oil! Don't give up! u have my support!!!

Alright, I'll leave this post as it is. Tomorrow i'm going for the lit fest and I'm pretty excited!!! YAY! Gonna support PL! GO PL!! WOOOOOO! *carries banners*

time to go, TTFN

Jojo

lala

2006-08-15T05:03:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered why everyone puts themselves down so often, while looking at others as if they were better than themselves? Well, it isnt very healthy to do this if you ask me... Today there's a purpose for me to post this, and i hope that this message will reach to those who are feeling depressed, distraught or just really stressed up because of tests, friends, even relationships. Please note that I'm not trying to pin-point anyone, but i'm trying to help them. Please don't be angry, I don't meean to embarrass or put you down. :)

I know of a friend who recently sank deep into depression. She even created a blog that showed her inner self. It fights with her everyday, not letting her have a moment's happiness. I remember her telling me that she wanted to cut herself after a history test, which i thought was a very foolish act. In her blog, she goes on to say that she wished death would arrive sooner for her.... that she couldnt see any thing else worth living for. Has modern society and peer pressure really created these individual's thoughts and behaviours?

There's another friend who feels rejected and mixed up inside. Though she puts up a happy front, negative thoughts and loneliness rages on inside her. She is a terrific person, always helping others, always a joy to be with, yet it's really sad that she goes through all this while thinking that she's alone.

Exams, tests, studies, peer pressure, relationships, all these cause so much unwanted stress and strains a person's self-esteem. Is this how the world has become? Everyone being so negative about themselves, thinking that others are better, more good-looking and cooler. Students feel pressurized to do well for their exams and tests due to the high standards they have set for themselves. It's not impossible to achieve the results, but haveing self doubt on your ability inevitably affects the way you study and thus, causes emotional stress and confusion.

At this young age where we are going through our teenage years, feelings for the opposite gender starts to grow as well. Maybe you managed to be with the person you like, maybe you dont... Some who don't get what they want bury themselves in misery, always wishing that their crush would accept them, yet nothing can be done. This gradually affects your studies and you tend to look down on yourself and think that u're not good-looking...

Though it is difficult to always cheer yourself up, remember that faith is important. Without faith in yourself, it is very easy to give up! Think of this, living in a world of despair, hatred and misery... isnt that a very cold place where hearts are hardened and no hope can be found? I'm sure no one wants to be in that situation. In every bad situation, there's always something good, something magical that peeks out... and that something... is hope. Hope for the future, hope for a new day, hope for yourself. It's waiting for you to extend your hand and grasp it. With it many things can be done, many things can be accomplished. What you can do for yourself and the society, you will do. What you cannot do, you need not do. However remember that friends are always there to support you, even if you feel lonely or friendless, think of your childhood, the group of people who always hang out with you. What about your parents? Yes, we all need comfort and support, we all need a listening ear to hear us out. Why not find that special someone. There are no strangers in this world, only people who you have yet to meet.

Jojo

my comp is fixed!!! hoorah!

2006-08-06T05:01:00.000-07:00

HEY HEY HEY! My computer is finally fixed!! woohoo!1 Go Daddy! YAY! mann i missed having my comp!! haha! now i dont have to rely on my mom's computer anymore!! weeee!

Oh yeah, yesterday was the "Symphony of Praise"! It was terrific! It's basically a school concert that the school organised for a fund raising project, also to declare God's Glory! XD My family were there and they said that it was a good performance! goodies!!

However, my friend couldnt make it even after he promised that he would go to support me.... so i was pretty upset and cried most of the time. I seriously dont noe why I fell into neglectance after that, claiming that everyone hates me and I'm just an "extra". Oh well, what's passed is past. I dont wanna dwell on it again.

hmmmmm, tomorrow's there's a Chem Quiz. Good thing I studied abit already. I think I'll do a little more studying later on.

ohohoh!!! You noe what!!!!! It's almost the 9th of AUGUST!!!!! MATIONAL DAY!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!! *high!!*

Happy Birthday to u, happy birthday to u, happy birthday to SINGAPORE!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! YAY! :D

I think that's enough of my crapping. I'm gonna enjoy my time on the computer. Sayonara for now!

P.S. I cant change the colour of my fonts!! wahhhhh

Jojo

good times have some bad points

2006-07-27T01:52:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. I'm finally back. Sorry for the long wait. My computer is corrupted and I'm using my mom's computer. I'll be using this comp till my own is fixed up. As u can tell,I'm not exactly in the best of mood today.It's a good thing that i can use the computer again,but when I tried to open a file which contained a project that we've spet so much time on, it did not work. Guess what,its due tomorrow. Guess I have to let my group down.... it's all my fault. If only I checked it earlier,if only I was told about this earlier, at least I could have done something to savage the project... how embarrasing. I hope that by some miracle,i'll be able to operate the fle gain. Maybe I can change the project entirely since we have a video. I pressume this is the last resort.

Sometimes,things happen. We have to be prepared to chage and adapt to the situation. I've developed a more matured perspective suddenly and i believe everything will turn out fine. In life you can't always expect everything to go your way. What's done,is done.

Jojo

I'm back!

2006-07-13T23:23:00.000-07:00

Hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! I'm finally BACK! There's a reason why I couldnt update my blog, really! Anyway, my bro was fiddling around with my computer and guess what, he corrupted my computer files!! So now I cant use my computer since it keeps lagging. Annoying isn't it?

I'm using the schoool's computer now and waiting to go for yet another choir practise. Mann! Wish I could go home and have a rest before my math tuition at 6pm! School's just so tiring these few days! Sigh!

OH yeah, I've been selected to take part in this IT competition... yes, PROGRAMMING! When I first heard it, i was totally taken aback! Me, IT? no connection there! However, I guess it isnt that bad since there will be training sessions and all. Let me give you an overview of the project.

We have to come up with a 60s animation based on themes that have to do with National Education of our country, thus, the competition is called, "N-E-mation." However, being a complete doofus of programming, I guess I won't be the one coming up with the animation. I'll help with the ideas and designs but I cannot, I repeat, CANNOT do programming!!!

The prizes are pretty appaling! Your animation will be screened on two most watched channels if you are one of the top 3 winners. More prizes await other winners too, but I'm just too lazy to go through everything! Lol

Sigh, I have to go for choir soon.... Please tag everyone!! I wanna see some life in my blog! Thank you! Arigato!

Guess i better go. I'll see you all in a while... I hope. Sayonara!

Jojo

Music Marathon

2006-07-02T03:22:00.000-07:00

Hey all! My grp's performance was great!! I had so much fun ono Friday, especially when we were singing "Hey Juliet"!!! Woooo!!! My class rox!! After all that hard work, sweat and blood put into the performance, it turned out better than expected!! I wanna perform all over again!! Both groups were fantastic!! Weeee!!

Tomorrow's the last day of the marathon... how time flies!! We've been performing from Thurs and we did it!! WOOOOOO!! PL ROCKS!!!! XD

Please come down and support us! I garantee entertainment and great fun!!! We hope to raise $90 000 from the music marathon! 60% of the proceeds will go to a charitable organisation and 40% will go to our school's redevelopment fund!! XD please donate generously!! haha

I'm gonna get high tomorrow!! WEEEEEE!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY! So so so fun!! Can't wait for the countdown!!! yay!!

Lol, that's all I have to announce! Oh yeah, please tag my board! Thanks! Ciao for now!

Jojo-Hyperness is part of my life.

reposting...1....2....3!

2006-06-27T20:09:00.000-07:00

Hey all! I intended to update my blog on the first day of school, but I guess I logged off my computer before I actually posted it. XD silly me!!! Guess I'll just post again.

One more thing, I'm blogging in school, during IT lesson. My teacher is busy uploading some songs for the music maraton, so we're left on our own for 2 whole periods!!! :))wheeee!!

Alright, down to blogging

The first day of school was prettty slacky, since all we did was practise for the music marathon! However, what a day it was!! We were rehersing but I felt that no one was paying any attention to me. I was really frustrated since I kept shouting to be heard over the noise, but it just seemed that whatever I did, nothing would come out of it. So in the end, in exasperation, I broke down and cried.... in front of my whole class >.< How embarrasing. I'm really at my wits end. Till now I seriously don't know how to get the attention of my group members. I want this music marathon to be a to be a success, but some are just unenthusiastic about this. Sighh..... why won't anyone liste to me? I'm beginning to think that I'm not that good a leader..... sighh.....

I really hope the next rehersal will be fruitful. I'm tired of shouting, crying and kicking up a big fuss over this project! I've done so much and I really don't wanna see it go to waste. Singing and performing in front of many in a public area has always been my dream. Sure, I do perform in public with Choir, but somehow, this music marathon is different.

Maybe my grp doesn't like me or something.... maybe they think I'm trying too hard... arh! i dunno!! darn...

Oh yeah, now for the details of my performace.

My class will be performing from 4pm -6pm on Friday. It's at Millenia walk!! hehez! Come down and support!! Oh yeah, I' also performing with the choir on Thurs from 7-7.30pm me thinks.:)

I feel like listening to a sad song... wahhhhh >>.<<

And now, Juan An is telling me about Goong Princess Hours.... I really don't understand at all. Just pretnding to understand so that she doesn't hit or scold me. She just pinched ZhenYi... She's complaining that it's very painful. Poor thing right? HAHAHAHA

Sometimes, my life is justr really topsy turby, but with frenz around, my life seems happier and more worth it.

Juan An says that I'm talking bad about her.. but I don't think I am, am I? Oh well, doesn't matter... she's just really funny. haha

That's all from me for now. I hope those wo knopw me will come support my school in this music making event!! Despite the stress, I'm still really excited about this. :)

this is Jojo, singing her way out.

Oh no! I can't find the button to change the colour of my post!!! Guess it's purple all the way.. lol

no title haha

2006-06-19T00:54:00.000-07:00

This is wayyyy boring!!!! It's a typical Monday afternoon. I'm blasting my computer's speakers, am online in MSN but no one is talking to me and just stoning.... having no desire whatsoever to do my homework. AHHHH!! I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO FINISH MY HOMEWORK ALREADY!!! 1 MORE WEEK TILL SCHOOL REOPENS!! BOOO!!!

I'm stressed up! When school reopens there will be the P.E. dance item thing...and I just remembered that I haven't filled up the form! Gahhhhh!!! Music Marathon is around the corner and I seriously have no time to get everyone together!! Guess I have to squeeze it in somewhere.

My powerpoint is only 1/3 done and it's really pressurizing since some say that it has to be handed up when school reopens, while others say that the due date was like, 3 weeks ago!! I really dunno anymore!! AHHHH!! >.<

Oh well, guess I shouldn't be so stressed up. I'll manage, eventually...

I went ice skating yesterday(Sunday). It was terrific!! We skated for 4 hours!! XDD FUN! I also managed "dance" on the ice!!!(though it's just lifting one leg and making it look graceful, hey I am still a rookie!!) I also learnt how to run on the ice!! HAHAHAHA! WITHOUT FALLING!! GO ME! XD

I've been waking up really late these few days... bad Jojo!!>>.<< I need to wake up earlier or else half my day is gone!! boo!!

Gosh it's almost 4 and all I've accomplished is my geog worksheet!! Shoooooootttt!!! Need to start on my english! Wish me luck cuz I'm gonna loose interest in homework really soon. sigh. I'm really at my wits ends.

Oh yeah! Maybe I'll let you guyz see a picture I took in the UK.

Guess who I am!!( for those who don't know me) XD

Well, Cheerio! Guess I'll update another time. This is such a boring post!! Thanks for bearing with me. Sayonara!

Jojo

UK UK UK!!

2006-06-12T05:58:00.000-07:00

Hey all!! I just came back from the UK yesterday! Boy was it fun!! I neveer regretted going for the trip since it's so fulfilling. It enabled me to understand some of my friends better and I made some pretty good frenz as well! Overall, it fulfilled it's objective and I now see Literature as a whole new thing. ^_^

Alright, now down to the process of my trip.

The first day, we had to sit for 13 hours on board before we landed in Manchester. After getting on to the coach(you dont call a tourist bus...a bus in the UK, it's coach, bear that in mind) we went to the Bronte Parsonage. Over there was like, way creepy cuz you could see that graves filled the church yard from where the parsonage was. Though the flowers were in full bloom since it's spring going to summer, it still brought about a sense of dread and gloom. Pretty interesting to learn that your environment affects the way you write your stories or poems... hmmmm

Next we went to William Worthsworth's house at Rydal Mount near the lake district. The scenery was breath-taking!! Wow! It was a totally different mood!! Th ehouse was so lively and the exterior was de best!! Lush green grass covered every floor in the gardens and bright flowers flourished. It was just so beatiful!! Hey guess what, Wordsworth landscaped the garden himself! Talk about multi talented.

We retired at the youth Hostel at ampleside. Well, there was a common bathroom so everyone was qeueing to use it. So, being the impatient sort, I waited till everyone finished and were outside by the lake to shower. Oh by the way, you must must MUST go to the lake district!!! It's awesome!! Lots of inspiration can be drawn from there if you noe what I mean. Really awesome!!

I got to share a room with my partner at the youth hostel and it was only the 2 of us, Whereas others had to share with like, 5 other ppl! Yup, sure was lucky!! haha

On the 2nd day of the trip, we went to York! It's believed that it was the most haunted city in the UK. Well, I guess it is rather true, since during the medival times, many innocent lives were lost at that area. Creepy....

We went to York Minster first. The place was really grand and just so awesome!! Makes you feel puny cuz the church was HUUUUUUGEEE!! YEP ENORMOUS!! Anyways, after that we went for the Ghost trail. Some of the stories were scary, but the guide was just so funny it's hard to get scared!! AND before u pester me abt the ghost stories, I prefer to tell it to you when it's broad daylight, one on one. It's dark already!

hmmm, oh the next day we went for a school visit at Mount's school, then to Cambridge. Both experiences were fun!! Errr, should I type this notion here? well..... it's a pretty biased statement regarding Oxford and Cambridge sooo.... one on one again! ^_^

4th day now right? We went to Warwick castle!! Woooo!! It was soo fun! we went up the spiral staircase and watched the bird show... well half of it. HAHAHAH! We did something pretty.... naughty too.. HAHAHAH!!

5th day!!Ok we went to stratford.... the birthplace of SHAKESPEARE!! gasp everyone!! then at night we watched Julius Cesear... ... well... ... due to tiredness, half of us slept a little for the second half including me... or was it cuz of the play...hmmmm -whistles-

Oh the next day we went to Bath!! Jane Austen!! Roman baths!! you get the picture... last but not least... SHOPPING!!! I bought like, 2 pieces of cloths. 1 top and 1 mini skirt!! *squeals* eeerrrr, sorry.. haha! After that we made our way to LONDON!! and we watched a creepy, scary, nightmarish "Woman in black"!!!!! Though I ahve to admit that it was pretty good. Being the coward I was, I had to sit between 2 teachers... ... ... go figure me.

The next day... It was what every girl dreamt of... SHOPPING THE WHOLD AFTERNOON!! YAY!! I bought 1 white top I think... haha and we went to practical all the cloths store ^_^;;;;; My fren and I are just shopping fanatics hahahahhaa. After a chinese dinner (finally!! after so many days of western food, not that I dont like it) we went to watch the Lion King!!!!!!!!! Fantastic musical really!! Brilliant act and very colourful!

7th day, we went tot he globe theatre and the workshop was really fun!! The guide was good too! then after that we went to the BBC!!!!! Really awesome! really cool! we saw the studios, green rooms etc etc. Then we saw the centre of the news station! Some of the girls from my grp played "the weakest link"! It was coool!

then the last day we went shoppping again!! Wee!! Went to a flea market and got a ring! Then went to a park for our presentation, got first prize!! Woohoo! Go shakesquard! Then went to Harrods but I didnt go in, just shopped around the area since Harrods is EX!! $$$$$$$ Went to Zara and bought myself a skirt again!! haha. After that we went to Tesco to do some last min shopping! Bought clothes and chocs before heading to the airport where we bid farewell to London. However, we all noe that this memory will forever be etched into our minds and we will never forget this wonderful experience.

0.0 I typed so much!!! Hope you all didn't fall asleep while reading this.. haha!

Here I am now, typing away. If yuou have any oppoturnity, please go to the UK, it's brillant!! bring enough cash for shopping cuz the things there are wayyyy pricey! Cheerio and will keep this blog updated as far as possible!!

God bless!!

Jojo

it's raining!!

2006-05-31T23:27:00.000-07:00

Pita pata pita pata, the raindrops fall like salty teardrops from the sky. Dark clouds loom overhead, casting the ground in shadows. Thunder roll and lightning strikes sending chills up and down my spine...

Haha!! Konichiwa!! Yep, I know it's a very dramatic beginning, but hey, if you want to improve your writing, you have to write everyday. :) Oh by the way, just a gentle note, try not to use "Pita pata". I just put it there since I wanted to create the sound of the rain. However for your exams, never do this since it is obvious that the rain makes that sound. Hope that helps! hehe!

0.0 Something's up with me...

Oh yeah, I have chinese tuition later, that's why I came here to do some blogging before I have my chinese tuition. Sigh!! I hate chinese! >.<>

Hey guess what, my chinese tutor is a guy... a guy!! 0.0 What's more, this is home tutoring. that means it's one on one.... gosh. well, I just hope the lesson will be interesting. My mom did mention that he carries a laptop around to teach so i hope it'll at least be entertaining. Wonder how it'll turn out though...

Wow! I can't believe it. Just one more day before I fly off to the UK.. that's fast. It'll be so much fun! However, a part of me is reluctant to go.... maybe it's cuz of what someone said.sigh Hey, the rain just got bigger. The sky's darker too...and it's only 2.34pm!! Wooooooo

Ehhh, guess that's all I have to say. More updates on my life soon. OH yeah, anyone done with half of their hol homework? Cuz you know what, I only started a bit on my math homework >.<>

the video!! lookie there~

2006-05-29T06:28:00.000-07:00

Hey ya everyone! Just wanna tell you that the

video there isn't mine. I borrowed it from

youtube where you can actually share the video.

Being the idiot in computer software, there is

no way I could have made this wonderful

video!! So don't sue me lawyers!! *runs*

*coughs loudly*

Oh hello there! Welcome to my humble blog! *loud music plays in the video* well, pretty humble blog ^_^;;;;

Anyways, today we had choir from 9 to 11.30am! Oh gosh it was the longest choir practise ever!! 2 1/2 hours of singing... 2 hours of warm ups... ack, can get sorethroat!! haha, good thing I didn't get it though!

After Choir I went to McDonald's with Juan An and Debbie. Chatted and ate!! hahahah! Debbie kept staring at the painting and noticed all the intriguied designs on it. As you can tell, she's one enthusiastic art student.

Me? I didnt really bother about the painting although I had to admit that it was a piece or good work. It was a painting depicting the McDonald's Macots. The contrast is really good and really captivating. Since I, the greedy girl decided to concentrate more on my fish burger instead of the painting that was right behind me, I failed to notice it until Debbie pointed it out! haha

Juan An tried to steal my phone!!! .... Nah, of course not, we were just playing tag-of-war with it! haha. She wanted to see the messages from someone... hmmm, didn't let me see hers... not fair!!

Anyways, went back home and went online. Chatted with frenz and did some math homework till my math tuition teacher came. This is my first lesson too so I had not a clue how she was like. She turned out to be a really kind and sweet tuition teacher. With her guidance, I pray that I'll get A1 for Math. Of course, I also hjave to greatly depend on the Lord too!! Amen!!

hmm, guess that's about it. I spent about 30 mins trying to get that video up for all you guyz to see. It's a really great video and it's Yami/Tea centred!! Hope you like the video as much as i did!!

Welp, that's about all from me... remember, the video isn't mine, really ISN'T MINE!!!!!!!!! I DO NOT OWN THAT VIDEO!!

Toodles and happy holidays!!

Signing off
Jojo

Stress is on my menu

2006-05-25T04:33:00.000-07:00

Hey guyz, the holidays are finally here! Well at least for me, though I have to go to school tomorrow to aid in the "meet-the-parents" session in school from 12 noon to 5pm.

Today was pretty hectic for me... first of, I had to go to school for an important prefects' meeting at 6.45am. Plus I only slept at 12.20am this morning!! AHHH!! I woke up at 5.55am... that's barely 6 hours of sleep. I'm so sleep deprieved. After school I gathered my group and we practised for the music marathon auditions which were at 3.45pm. Mann it was so difficult to get everyone's attention. Some of them were so distracted by the other group who was also praticing. At 2, I had another meeting so i skipped lunch and ran to the PB room. Panting, I took a seat and learnt that we were invovled in the meet the parents thing. After 1/2 of breifing, I rushed back to my class only to find them leaving the class for the auditions. I tagged along, feeling really jittery since I thought I didnt practise enough... We were just not ready!!

Gosh I feel so sadden by our performance... ok it wasn't anyone's fault in particular, maybe mine, but it was just.... Oh gosh. I guess after the first song we were a little disheartened cuz we started out wrongly and we sang in a wrong key for the chorus of a song. Sigh!! I don't noe if we can even sing in public!! I really wanna make it to prime time since it has always been my dream to sing in public and be the lead singer. It may sound selfish but as a singer(since I'm in choir) I want to experience it, I wanna bring joy to people with my singing... ...I thought this would be a good chance for me... so I will pray hard that we will make it. I cried bitterly after the auditions, as if this was a singing conpetition and I was rejected... sigh...

I had to run a few errands in school after that so I only left school at arolund 5pm. I'm so tired now and i think my eye bags are the most distinctive feature on my face. I've been sleeping really late today, reason disclosed. Sorry about that. Anyways, time for me to stop here and wish you happy holidays!! Enjoy it while it last but remember, for all students, to study harder and play a little. That's all from me now! Bye!

Trust in the Lord
Jojo

blogging finally

2006-05-23T21:31:00.000-07:00

Hey! I'm finally blogging!!! It has been a while hasn' it. Sighs, slept at 12.30AM burning CDs for the music marathon...not to mention I was engaged in a phone conversation till then (*sighs*the other end refused to let me go*coughs*)

Anyways, I'm still pretty stressed up even though this is the last week of school... though I don't feel like it is. Lessons continue, holiday homework pilling up, UK trip coming up in 2 weeks... WAHHHH! I'M OVERWELMED

Mann, I haven't started packing for the trip.... I suddenly don't feel so enthusiastic about it... maybe it takes time. Besides, it's fun to explore new places.

OHOHOH!!! Saturday was the best day of the life!! ok, so It's a little exaggerated, but i had fun during my cousin's birthday party.

When I reached my cousin's condo, I just thought it would be the same thing over again, ut this party proved me wrong...

We had a barbecue party beside the pool! Mann it was cool. My cousins, siblings and I were playing around the pool when my eldest cousin pushed my other cousin in the pool! Haha! So i wanted to get dunked too. My cousins agreed to let me borrow their baggy shirt and shorts and in I went!! We even pulled my bro down, who was wearing his long pants! Boy did we have fun! Of course... the fun didnt last for too long. A resident complained about us... grr.. and the guard came. We went to hide but my maid(who was also in t-shirt and shorts) was still inside.... so she got busted. Oh well, doesn't matter anyways, it was a thrilling experience for us.

Next, my eldest cousin emailed a radio DeeJay dedicating a song to my couz since it's her birthday party. guess what! It came through and the DeeJay read out the dedication. We squealed in delight cuz the DJ also sang the birthday song!! haha. I even recorded it into my MP3 via the built in recorder. ^_^

Mann, I'm getting stressed out with homework. Not to mention the music marathon auditions are tomorrow!! ahhhh!!!!! Need minus ones!! Not done!! ahhh! Calm down I shall, breath deeply and relax I must. Talking like Yoda I am. Not a fan of star wars though... haha!

oh, time to watch the documentary of the Da vinci code. Thanks for reading my blog and pleas please please tag!! I'll greatly appreciate it!! thanks everyone! I'll see ya guyz around! Bye

Best regards
Jojo

bored

2006-05-14T00:39:00.001-07:00

Do you ever feell bored out of your wits after exams? Well, that's what I'm feeling now, extremely very bored!!! Besides preparing for my Lit presentation tomorrow, searching for songs and lyrics for the music Marathon, there's nothing else to do... Not saying that I would rather have exams... ... You get what I mean

Hey I just got a new hair cut. I'm pretty satisfied with this one. It's layered, shorter and thinner than my previous hair style.

Good luck and all the best to all who are still mugging for their papers. I know my bro still has his exams coming up... but he's still laughing at his monitor screen at some websites and mapling. Geeeee, brothers! Typical. -.-;;;

Oh hey, There's a new member in my dance class. It's a man. Really, I'm not joking. He's a father of one of the dancers, the youngest one of course. I was a little surprise, but then again, my instructor is a male, so i guess there's nothing wrong with that. What the hey, it's absolutely normal!! Haha!

Gosh I'm going insane -___-

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Ok, I'm running out of things to say... ... Gosh I just remembered... I got math homework!! ehhh!!!!! Ok, gotta blast! Bye

P.s. At least there's something to do now.... jeepers

Jodie blasting off! Sayonara

Ahhhhhh

2006-05-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

Date: 7th May 2006
Mood: annoyed, angry and frustrated
Title of post: An unpleasant experience, coupled with feeling lousy about myself

Today started out fine, with me reading the papers and finding out that the PAP won... YAY! However, it took a turn for the worse(more like embarrassment) when I met the police.... My mom needed to go back to the clinic at one of those HDB flats so we had to find a place to park the car, but to our dismay, the carpark was already full and there was not a place left to park our car. Anyway my mom really needed to go to the clinic since they wrote something wrong on the cheque and had to change it, so we didnt have any choice but to park outside. After my mom SWITCHED THE ENGINE OFF, I witnessed a police car pull up in front of us. What do u noe, they waited in the car for 1 whole minute after my mom left, leaving me alone... -_- So I thought I wasnt in trouble until the police finally came out of the car and knocked on my side of the window.

Shocked to see them, I stretched to pull up the main lock at the driver's side, but when I did that, the alarm went off!! 0.0;; I tell u, my face went red with embarrassment and I was already getting annoyed. The police asked me to come out of the car so after figuring how to open my door, I came out. They asked who the driver was and got me to go find my mom, saying that my mom didnt off the engine... LIKE HELLO!! SHE DID!! GRRR! So off I went, with a cross look on my face. What did I look like a terrorist or something? huh? HUH?!

After searching for 2 mins, I finally saw my mom walking back to the car, I ran to her just when she reached the car. Guess what, the police said that the car was obstructing the road and she should not have parked it there, which is true... ... but then they also said that the alarm was really noisy... "what are alarms for anyways?" I was thinking to myself. After all that drama, earning a few stares from by-standers, We hopped back into the car, my mom pretending that nothing happened and me feeling my blood boil under my skin. I can't believe I had to go through all that embarrassment just cuz the car was parked there, that place without a yellow line?(which is actually legal!) Plus there was a car parked there for a longer period of time then us and it went off when we came. UNFAIR UNFAIR UNFAIR!!!!!! Note, I had to bear with all those stares when the police "interrogated" me... GRRR!! I noe the authorities just wanna make sure that everything is in order, but how can they expect me, an innocent teenager, to know the whole road etiquette. I'm not of legal age to drive u noe!!!!!!! Ok, I shan't continue.... If I were the police I would have done the same thing...sigh, I dunnoo.... ehhh, dont sue me please!!! I didnt intend to pin point anything ok... just...ranting.

Now, on to what made me feel lousy about myself...

After the incident, I went to dance. I was already feeling irritated and was on the verge of crying. We started the warm-ups, that was alright. Then we had to do this routine where u had to do a split in the air(kinda like that, think jumping over the drain with your right leg in front and left leg behind) I stumbled and I looked like an idiot!! I really don't understand but I just couldnt do it. I was holding everyone up. I felt so humiliated... and to think I'm one of the youngest dancers... that means I should be flexible and good at this kinda stuff... sigh. That's just part 1

Part 2 was when we were dancing. I guess I wasn't really in the right mood so I didnt exactly do the dance properly at first. As always, *izmds is the PRO. My dance instructor always ask her to demo for us. To tell you the truth, I'm actually a little jealous of her since she's a wonderful dancer and makes me think that I'm nothing compared to her. She's flawless, unlike me.... grr. Sometimes I wish I could dance as perfectly as her... *sobs*

I wasn't surprised when my dance instructor chose her to demo for us again. Yeah yeah she's good. Her dancing technique is fantastic, she's an excellent dancer.... That's why I feel like a baboon when I dance next to her... sighhh. I really feel inferior to her when I see her dance. Sometimes I just wish I could be as flexible, agile and thin as her.... if ony... Sighssss
Yep, all this happened in the morning. Now I'm back at home furiously typing at my keyboard and hoping that this post will appear(I tried to put it up so many times but it just wont let me!!) I better get going. I have yet to complete my homework assignment that is due tomorrow and I got to continue my math revision since I got the test on Tues. There's so much to do, so little time.

P.s. *Izmds is not her real name

Jojo- a sad and frustrated girl

Tired.. lol

2006-05-05T08:13:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone... WOW!! I haven't updated for a while huh? Well, I was busy with common tests and all... I HAD TO STUDY!! AHHH Must do well for tests!! MUST!! >.<

I've been feeling a little stressed out lately, what with all the tests and pressure to do well. You know, teenagers these days are starting to bald faster... the reason? Too much pressure, too many tests.... making us lose our sanity.... GAHHH. Yes, I'm mad...

Anyways, this week, I had my geog test on tues, History test on Thurs and my lit test today, on Friday.

Geog test= DIFFECULT and answers not found in textbook. X.X

History test= Pretty easy since the questions that came up were the ones I practised for.

Lit test=pretty average since it's easy to understand the poem and I knew how to identify the literacy devices used in the sentences.

So now, it's down to Maths and Scince, on tues and thurs respectively. After that.... WEEEEE! Time to par-T! (not wildly please)

I got back my chinese test today and got 40/60 which is an improvement. I was like, practically staring at my te st paper asking myself if I really got the marks.... I have never done this well.. (mind you my chinese SUX) I thank God for helping my achieve these marks... although it's just B3, it's still an improvement and that's all that counts right? I'll keep aiming higher and hopefully get better marks next time.

Guess what guess what guess what!!! I was waiting for my grandpa today outside my school(at the back gate) and out came B**'s sister. We chatted for a while and her father's car pulled up before my grandpa's car was in sight. I peeped in and guess who I saw... B**!! hahahaha! He had such a funny expression on his face, like he was practically shocked to see me there!! HAHAHA! I caught him good! Yeah, I'm good! lol

Oh! My frenz came over today! We were suppose to study together and some of us were suppose to touch up on our lit proj... i guess we were a little distracted... lol. Didnt manage to do much work.. lol, but it's alright, next time we'll be more focused! lol!

Wow look at the time, i better stop here. Thanks for reading and have a blessed day tomorrow! Bye for now! It's Jojo signing off!

Yoz peeps

2006-04-27T04:29:00.000-07:00

Yoz peeps! Yep, another boring day of my life... Ok, not exactly, but everything's just happening like everyday. Alright I'm crapping, I'll stop

So, today I had my chinese test.. darn.. I dont think I will do well for it. First of all, I forgot how to write a couple of words.. AHHHHH! I think my cloze passage is also not very well done... and my compre? Sigh, forget abt it!!! >.<>

Sigh, I have a chinese compo test tomorrow 0.0 AHHHHHHHHH MUST...DO...WELL.... any moment now and I think my head will explode... literally!!! Being a student these days is tough!!

Hey you know what? For Bio today, my Bio teacher told us how to kill a hamster or a rat before you dissect it. I was on the verge of crying! Ok, here's the deal, u have to hold it's neck and tail and give it a hard pull... AHHH POOR HAMSTERS AND RATS!! T^T It's so scary!! She told us this really gruesome story.... Her friend tried pulling the hamster( poor thing.... sobs) but it wont die! So she had to keep pulling and pulling and the hamster bit off a chunk of her flesh on her thumb(eeewwwwww, but still... poor HAMSTER!!) Sigh... I don't think I ever wanna dissect an animal... It's cruel you hear me? CRUEL!!!

I dunno, I felt a little uneasy when she showed us an animal's heart on the powerpoint. Mannn, I'm such a coward... sighsssss. How can I even dream of becoming a doctor?

I'm still addicted to "Hey Juliet"!! :):):) It's an awesome song, trust me!! If you haven't heard it, I urge you to feed your ears with this song soon! Go get it!! Get the album, get it from your friend, download, anything!! JUST LISTEN TO IT!! hahahahahah P.s. download legally as far as possible? lol

I think that's enough babberings from me today. I'll catch ya guyz in a few and keep tagging my tag board!!! Pretty please with a sweet juicy red cheery on top? ^_^ God bless Ya'll!

Jojo

OH lookie I'm at home

2006-04-19T20:39:00.000-07:00

20th April, Thursday

You know what, I suddenly wished I went to school today -___________- I HAVE A LIT TEST AND AN ENGLISH SUMMARY TEST FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!! ..... and here i am at home, idling away(since I finished my homework already).

It all started yesterday, when i fell down and got this huge gash on my right knee. Blood kept pouring out of my wound. Yipes!! Then after that, I really don't know what happened, but I started feeling nauseous and got a headache... so I had to go home >.<>

I couldn't sleep so well last night as my wound wont stop bleeding... some orange liquid kept leaking out of my wound too... eek! It's still the case now and i can confidently say it's not a very pleasant feeling. So I told my dad and he said I shouldnt go to school... hmmm, maybe I should have told him that I have tests today... oh well, what's passed is past.

Grrrr!! My headache is coming back! It's annoying! Funny thing is, this headache only comes at 11am yesterday and today. I'm tellling the truth! After that, it wears off. I still have a headache, maybe I should rest later. Sigh.... hate feeling like this... I WANNA GO TO SCHOOL!!

Miss my friends in school already :( Wonder what they're doing now... Sigh. Hmm, wonder what my besties in Cresent's are doing now too.... AHHHHH!! I'm so bored-___- don't mind me.

Drat, I got my most dreaded subject tomorrow. Sigh, more scolding I presume... I haven't gotten the Autosol!! Darnnnn!! I need to get my hairband... AHHHH annoyed... -____-

Alright, I'll stop blabbering, maybe I do need some rest. Hope my wound would close soon, it's getting pretty sticky.. yucks! Bye for now and thanks for dropping by! God bless and have a pleasant day!

Signing off,
Jojo

My poem

2006-04-19T02:36:00.000-07:00

I was feeling a little down so I wrote this poem. Enjoy ^_^

Tragic feelings turn happiness

A pain in the body
Shoots through the soul
Mixed emotions
Lo and behold
I gaze up at the sky
Wondering about my life
Degrading myself and tears fill my eyes
"So many people are better than me," I whisper
"Why can’t I think positively?" I add

Looking at the sky and remembering God
I close my eyes and think of his work
Making everyone wonderfully and fearfully
Treasure yourself for it's the only remedy

A smile grazes my features
As I wipe away my tears
Do not fear for God is here
Friends are around
Bringing joy and happiness
Do not dwell in what the world thinks
Love yourself for who you are
Only then will you be a blessing
To all those in despair

That's all for today. Thanks for reading my poem and please tag!! Bye for now. God bless

about today, duh!

2006-04-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

There's so much I wanna say about what happened today that really hurt my esteem and dignity, but I really have to keep it within me. After all, this is a blog, not a private diary. Sigh.... I was feeling a little down during the last few periods in school. I cried when someone said something to me... but I know it's for my own good... Sigh. Still, I don't know why but I just find that the words came down harsh on me... ^_^; Me and my sensitivity.

Alright, this month is like the wettest month of all! It has just been raining and raining and you know what, RAINING!! Just today, I forgot to bring my umbrella since I let it "sun bathe" yesterday, so i ahd to share 1 umbrella with my good friend. My plan was to wait in the church for someone to come pick me up. So after my friend dropped me off at the church, I started my so called, "long" wait. Boy, did I make it to the church in time, before long a heavy downpour fell. I was like this: 0.0;; hahaha!! OH yeah, some of the staff of the church were there so they looked at me so suspiciously... ooooOoOOOOoooo.... What did I do wrong this time? haha Good thing the rain stopped after a while ^_^ praise God! then my maid came. Yay! I only got home at 3 though.

Gahhhh, I got a geog test tomorrow. Good thing I prepared for it already...but I'm still scared!!! I have so many tests coming up. It's official, I'll become a study freak after this... and to think this isnt CA yet. Wonder what I'll become then... hmmmmmmm

Ohhhh, this is yet another short entry... sigh, sorry ppl, it's late and I got school tomorrow so I better sleep now. God bless and have a pleasant week ahead! Ta Ta for now! The Jojo will be back!! P.S. PLEASE TAG TAG TAG TAG TAG TAG TAG TAG TAG TAG TAG TAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG XD XD XD

Bloging in skool yet again... lol

2006-04-17T00:23:00.000-07:00

It's now 3.23pm, 17/4/2006. Only 2 more minutes before I head on down to the church for my choir practise. Guess what, it's RAINING again!! -___- Sigh, good thing I brought my umbrella.

Anyways, today, I had my NAPFA test. I ran 2.4km and nearly died... nearly. I didn't have my recess since I was too weak to budge outta my place. haha! I was just sitting there trying to stop myself from puking on the floor.... It sux to feel so nauseous you know.. lol

Oh yeah, the new girl came today. Her name is Sharmine. She's a really nice girl :) I'm suppose to tour her around the school tomorrow so that'll be fun!! Wonder how she's doing here. Hope I'll be good friends with her too. :):):)

Oh golly, we had a Eng and Math test today. It's a good thing I prepared for my math test, but I was only informed of the english test today!!!! So yeah, i got the shock of my life and started freaking out! Good thing the test wasn't so difficult! Must...do..well.. *straining*

Oh no! My friend has already left the computer lab... I better get going. It's late and I still have choir! ok, she's chasing me now. Gotta go! God bless!

P.S. I'm in skool now :) haha

the rain

2006-04-15T03:04:00.000-07:00

Hey ppl, I'm back with another chapter of my life. Mannn... I'm starting to sound old...

Hey, have u guyz noticed that the weather is kinda odd again? Like in Jan? It's like, practically raining everyday!!! 0.0 I mean, I don't despise the rain or anything... just that the wet spell is here again.... You know what this mean... something fishy is going on!!! AHHH! nah... joking.. lol.

Hmmm, I justr realised that I haven't shown my YGO fanatic side of me yet.... lol. Hey, today's episode of YGO is creepy... Evil Bakura.. CAN'T STAND HIM!! *ains chair at his white spiky hair* but next week's episode is gonna be so interesting and exciting!! Can't wait!!

Gahhhhhh, I haven't updated my fanfic yet!!! As u all would have already guessed, my fanfic is a Yami/Tea fic, set in Ancient Egypt. I only have 2 more chapters to go, but I'm always so busy.... this period is definitely not a good time to continue writing my chapters yet. Tests are coming up and I really gotta study hard for it. AHHHHH! STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS

Hmmmm, there's not much to say now so I better get going... besides, I still got my chinese to do. Happy Easter everyone! May the good Lord bless u!!! Ta ta for now!!

Jojo

HI Everyone ..... This is Jodies BF Here!!

2006-04-14T22:24:00.000-07:00

Hi Everyone ... This is Ben Here . Yupx :)

Just wanna tell u guys that this blog is like really cool so just try to fill it up with ur taggings Lol ! Ummm me and jojo are a realli great couple and are having fun together .. But however her parents are very Strict !! Very scary to me too ( although I am an aikido warrior and a water-polo player ) Lol...

Anyways lets talk about me now .... I am a nice guy thats why jojo loves me and also party because of our vows for each other that we would not be separated .

jojo is so Cute !! And Hot !!

Anyways life in school is Not bad but there are a few rascals in my class as i am in Normal Acad ... ( never study hard) Anyways this year got 'N' levels so must study hard sia >.. jojo n i are planning on a study group thing as we both are going to study hard Lol (sure)

Anyways Thats all for now :) Thanks for going to my Gf's Blog ...... And may God the Father almighthy bless u and keep u in life eternal through Jesus christs his son for whom in u and with u by the power of the holy spirit keep u ... Amen

By the way me and jojo are going to get married .... so shoooo ( keep it quiet) Lol

This is Ben signing of ....

Wahhhhhh

2006-04-08T04:28:00.000-07:00

Once again I am here! Hey what do u know, I blogged before the sceduled time... hehe ^_^

Ok, let's dive in to what happened today. I woke up feeling really really really sick! I kept sneezing and coughing so I decided to leave my bed. Since I promised to go for a funfair in my best friends' school, I forced myself to think that I was alright and well enough to go. In the end, I managed to go anyways.

It was fun! I had an enjoyable time at the funfair! However I did still feel a little sick but I brushed it away. At the school, we(meaning me, my 2 best friends and my cousin) walked around looking at the various booths. I ended up buying some food, meeting some friends from my former primary school as well! :) Oh yeah I bought this really cool white belt!! YAY! .... gee, that sounded a little too girly.... hahaha.

I went on this ride called "the top dancer'. It's really cool! It's that ride where you sit on this chair along with others and it goes round from down to up. Anyone heard of it before? You'll get dizzy, but trust me, it's fun!! Yay!!

However, maybe I screamed too much whilst on the ride..... I felt a little unwell after that and really lethagic. Actually, I was suppose to go to my friend's house today, but I ended up getting a fever, thus I couldn't go... Awws!! It was aweful, aweful, aweful!! I still have a sore throat... Hopefully the fever doesnt come back... sigh, I hate getting sick! >.<

I'm feeling a little tired again so I think I'll head off to rest for a while. Thanks for reading my blog and I wish you good health for days to come! God bless! Byebye!

Jojo

WOOHOO!!

2006-04-07T05:50:00.000-07:00

Hello once again everyone!! I was beginning to think that the font size for reading pleasure was a little too small so I enlarged it a bit. Hope this helps with your reading! ^_^

Anyways, yes I am back! I haven't blogged for a while have I? I apologise sincerely.... I have been slacking...hahaha ^_^;;;

Hey! This week we didnt have any lessons at all! OK, first of all, innovation week started last friday so we had to finish up this project we were working on. Therefore we had last Fri and this Mon OFF to finish up everything!! Woohoo!! However, I got stressed at the last part since we had to rush through the project, so I cried when I was talking to a friend of mine that night. Oh, to add to the misery I was feeling that day, my hamster also passed away. You could imagine how depressed I was.

As the saying goes, all good things must come to an end, so does bad things. The next day(tues) We presented our project and I was thankful that we got over it. We didn't win anything but it doesnt matter since we've tried our best!! ^_^ Go TEAM!

Wednesday, Thursday and Friday(today) were the HAPPIEST days of my school life this term!!!!! We went for learning journeys for 2 days and attended a workshop today. My class went to a nature reserve on Wednesday. Boy did we have fun! I saw a monitor lizard!! oh and a Squirrel!! Oh and LARGE RED ANTS!! We also ventured deep into the reserve and saw many interesting plants. I learnt lots of things from that trip! Oh before we headed down to the nature reserve, we went to a dairy farm and fed goats!! XDXDXD A goat tried to eat up my uniform thinking it was food.... well, I had fun playing tug of war with it... haha!!

On Thursday we went to a historical site and viewed videos on the war a long time ago(due to privacy, I shall not disclose what war went on.) It was very very interesting! We even saw the battle site!! Of course it's covered with lush greenery now, but just think, you are looking at a place where a battle raged on quite a long time ago... Amazing isn't it!!

Today, we had our financial Literacy workshop. It was fun fun fun!! However I didnt attend the first part of the workshop since I didnt feel too well in the morning and thus spent my time snoozing and regaining my strenght in the sick bay. haha. After recess I attended the workshop, but all we did was play this REALLY FUN board game! The baord game is really cool and it teaches us about investment, savings, stocks and lots of other stuff related to morning(note: financial?) It was cool!!

Sigh, it's back to normal lessons next week... haha, it's alright. i'm thankful that the school allowed us to have fun this week!! I shall continue to persevere for my studies and obtain really good results this term, next term and the year end exam. That's my goal!!

Alright, enough of my blabbering! Thanks for stopping by my blog and I wish you a pleasant day ahead!! I'll be blogging again next week... hopefully.. haha! See ya everyone!

Jojo

drenched in the rain

2006-03-31T05:59:00.001-08:00

Ohhhhhhhhhh I tell you all, you DO NOT wanna get drenched in the rain! It was raining cats and dogs today!!! Gosh

Yeah, today I went to my friend's house for a project. We were suppose to film an "educational" video as a component in our website. So we did the video, had fun in the process as well. After that at around 3.30pm, we had to send HL to the bus stop. By then, the sky was already overcast with dark clouds. Thinking that we could take a video of the cars at the main road(since our main focus of the project is air pollution), the 5 of us went out, only JA stayed behind since she accidentally broke(but she would debate that it came off itself... haha) the strap of the slippers and had to fix it. So I shared an umbrella with my friend and we went out.

Lo and behold, IT STARTED TO RAIN SO HEAVILY!!! Plus we weren't even at the bus stop yet!! Oh gosh I was so WET!! The rain kept pouring and the wind blew the rain in!!! Good thing i got the umbrella from my friend when she reached the bus stop. However, we couldn't film. Hello, Thunder, lighting.... not a good time to film! Sigh, the thunder was scary and the lightning cracked. We all ran and screamed all the way and held to our umbrellas for dear life(though it didnt help much). In the end, we were still drenched from head to toe. Talk about a free shower -____________-

I'm so relieved that I could take a refreshing shower after I came home. Hopefully I won't fall sick. Hope my frenz don't too.... or else we'll have to take those awful medicine! Yuck!

Alright, I think I'll stop here. Have a pleasant day tomorrow and to all those with projects, good luck and may you finish it before the deadline. Bye for now! I'll catch ya all later!!

Jojo

I'm back!

2006-03-24T20:48:00.000-08:00

Hey guyz! I'm back to blog! It has been a while since I blogged. Pardon me, I was busy with school stuff.

This week was the first week back to school. It passed really fast actually. How did I spend my holidays? Well, I was online most of the time, other than that, I had to face the terror of homework... -_____-

The most memorable thing that I did in the hols was to attend Syanpse!!! It's a networking between prefects from other schools. Boy did I have fun fun fun!!! I really enjoyed playing games with the other prefects and just mingling with them! Our group(5) rox! WoOOooOOoo!! The prefects were really nice to me and I had a blast at Synapse. The synapse dance rox! I still cant get over the dance! Weeeeee... Even though it has been 2 weeks after synapse, the memories of that day will forever be etched into my heart. I have made good friends there and I intend to keep them ^_^I have the grp's contacts!!! *goes hyper*

Oh golly, I should really start updating my fanfic! I haven't updated since.... last year december I think. 0_0 THAT LOOONG?!?! I did start writing the intro, but I guess I got distracted and... lost the inspiration to write. AHHH! My readers are so gonna kill me for not updating! No one has been reviewing too.... ... ... darn, gotta dind time to do it soon.

I still got my chinese workbook to complete. Bah! Good thing I finished most of my school assignments... that reminds me ... I still have this major IDPW project to complete.... GAH!! I GOT LOTS TO DO, SO LITTLE TIME!!

Ehh, I guess that's it from me now! Enjoy your life and good luck in whatever you do! God bless! TTFN, ta ta for now!

Jojo

UK trip and other things.

2006-03-09T00:12:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps! I'm back with another update. I haven't informed you all yet, but I signed up for a Literature/English UK study trip. Guess what, I've been selected to go on this trip! Yay! It'll be so exhillarating! I've always wanted to go to the UK to experience the rich History of the country and to study about the exotic ancient poets and writers of the country like Shakespears and the Bronte sisters! My mom piled me with a list of books to read to prepare myself for the trip. Hmmm, I'm pretty excited about reading those books. Time to do it like a bookworm and dive into the books! Lol.

Although I'm pretty happy about this, I'm feeling a little upset as well. My good friend wasn't successful in the selection. She cried her eyes out when she heard that she didn't make it for the trip. I feel pretty sorry for her. She was so excited about the trip, yet she wasn't successful. I really don't understand why she couldn't go. Her Lit marks last year were pretty good and she is a well behaved girl, so why didn't she get through? Well, I guess that's for the teachers to know and us to find out. I hope she doesn't take this too hard.

Well, now I have to spread the news to my parents and ask if they are willing to let me go on this trip. After all, it's the UK we're talking about. You need to spend thousands of dollars just to get there. It is indeed an expensive trip, but a very fufilling one. Also, let's not forget TOP SHOP!! haha! :):):)

Alright, enugh of my blabberings! I have to go now. Thanks for viewing my blog! Take care and God bless! Bye!

My CA1 results.

2006-03-08T05:28:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone! I'm glad you all could stop by to view my new entry.

I'm sure all of you are pretty bored with reading about people's results all the time, especially during this period when we rave about how we did not meet up to our expectations for certain subjects. Therefore I hope that you will not fall asleep upon reading this entry. I'll try to make it short and snappy.

I'm pretty depressed today, ever since I got to know my CA1 results. Sigh, I never thought my grades would drop so drastically from last year till now. Sure, advancing one year in education can be a challange and it is common that this would happen, but for me, I believe that I should have gotten way better results than the results I produced if only I have been more focused. I was too distracted, too complacent and thus did not put in my best. Why can't I just turn back time and take the tests for those subjects that I didn't score up to my standards.

Sigh, everyone has beaten me. I feel like such a loser. I used to be really good in my studies, but just recently, my grades just dropped. Even my english grades dropped dramatically and my good friend( my partner) even mentioned that I was losing confidence in my english. I was losing confidence in MYSELF. I have dissapointed myself, my family and my teachers... Sure, I still managed to clinge 4 As(mind you that it's only 2 A1s and 2 A2s) out of the 9 subjects, but I still didn't meet my expectations... ...

I know I shouldn't dwell on the past anymore, that I should really focus on doing well for CA 2, 3 and the final year exams. I'm going to push myself till I see more As on my report card. Until then, I'll still continue to push myself to ensure that I secure my good marks.

People keep telling me that I shouldn't push myself too hard, but I really can't help it. Without any determination or perseverence, an athlete would fail to complete the race. It is the same for my studies. I really have to do well.... ... I really have to... ... sobs!

Look at the time, I better be going. Sorry if I dampened your mood today. I didn't type this entry to upset people. Please accept my sincere apologies.

With regards,
Jojo